Written by : Desmond
There wasn’t anyone at home but me, they all have gone to attend a marriage and would be gone till the next evening. Two beers left in my fridge, 21:00 Hrs, perfect time to have some FUN . I login at Yahoo messenger and join the Chennai Global Chat room number 9 !!! 22 M Santhome With place !! I advertise , lots of guys pinged me & I selected two from them they were very HOT (Saw their Cams) ! But they said they cant meet me right then, but swapped numbers with me. I happened to pick up a conversation with one Bro X who earlier used to live in the street perpendicular to that where I lived but shifted to Perungudi. We talked almost everything under the sun, stuff like religion and everything!!! I learnt that he comes from a very devout Catholic family!! And was a parishioner at the same church my dad prays at. We could not meet that very night. We planned to meet the next week or whenever my place was free
Three days later I met him near the church; there was something crazy about his dress and the way he spoke. He was a CATHOLIC PRIEST!!!!! He belongs to the Jesuit Seminary; he was doing a research on GAYS!!! He actually wanted to pick up information and that’s why he had chat with me!!! All this he told me after I took him home and was READY for it!!!! He gave me a picture of mother Mary – Sancta Maria, Mater Dei which means Holy Mary Mother of God pray for us, and gave an hour long lecture on eternal damnation, the bible, Sodom and Gommorah and the laws and the statutes of the Lord!! We went out for a walk after that and he left shortly.
We meet for the second time and now in Loyola College at his room. He prayed for me and took me out for lunch, gave me a longgggg piece of advice to turn STRAIGHT !!! By now we both were more like brothers I started talking to him about my personal problems. But I felt something somewhere was going wrong – yes I couldn’t take a stand and tell him that this is how I wanted to be. We were in contact for a while and used to meet at coffee day until he flew to Afghanisthan to serve at a church there as a lecturer.
One day he again calls me and says he is in Chennai and would like to meet me. The moment he saw me he came running hugged me and said “Good to see you again loving brother, how are you?” and kissed me on my cheeks!! I guessed the next question – Do you still date men ?? I said –YES ! He again started his , Oh! You need Jesus in your life – lecture. I just wanted to leave from there. He did not stay long that time.
Afghanishtani Chruch – Economy teacher – Bro X !! he sends mail about bible , jesus, mother mary, etc.,etc.,!!! But now I took a stand and said im GAY I cant change , Will you marry or not ??? – Yes I will, but a MAN !!! (I was proud of myself when I said that so loudly over phone everyone around me looking at me!!!). he just said – I still love you brother !!! I said - me too.
Month of June – 28th – Chennai Pride Parade everyone is excited, lots of people come out to their parents and close friends!!!
29th I go online J again ;) – Bro X again!!! We were talking about the Pride, and I slowly started talking about how the church tortured the homosexuals and others those days. He said that he doesn’t support everything that the church says, he said- The church says not to use condoms, but what will a married hetero-sexual couple do when they want to have sex and not a baby!!! Use a condom!! I thought now is the moment!! I said – Bro X what do you personally, not what you were taught at the church, you as a priest and your own personal opinion, what do you personally feel about gays. He was explaining many things and said “Religion is between YOU and GOD, just the two of YOU, FUCK the church!!!!” I was sooooooooooo gggllaadddddd I couldn’t type a word I was moved to tears!!! Now I said – Brother I Love you!!! He said – I love you too my dear little one- God bless you!!! He had to go out for shopping and I stepped out of the cafe so GAY and HAPPY!!!!!
Written by : Desmond