Gay party in a Differnent Level

Social Gathering for all Lesbian & Bisexual women in Chennai

Chennai Dost is planning to organize a social gathering for all lesbian and bisexual women in Chennai. Interested people are requested to register as a member of Chennai Dost. Please send your details to chennaidostt@gmail.com. Name, Phone number and email details are mandatory for member registration. For details contact 95516 30213.

Chennai Dost needs funds for Magazine

Chennai Dost is planning to launch an online magazine and a hardcover magazine to cover the lifestyle and entertainment of LGBT in Chennai. We are currently looking for funds and sponsors. Members and readers who are interested in providing monetory funds for the magazine can contact our PR at 95516 30213 for details

Cheers
Chennai Dost Team

Indian mothers

Written by: Vikki




If at all there is any complicated creature in the world for understanding it must be an Indian mother. Mind you, it is so liberating to use the word ‘creature’. Because they are the unique creatures than any other. Every Indian mother plays a vital role in every young Indian’s life. They are always insecure about their son’s love. They are ready to do anything when they see a danger in their relationship. They have this mission called emotional blackmailing, their main weapon is crying. Especially a gay man’s mom. They can be even more threatening.

I have seen my mom many times, tried to control me and my decisions whenever she felt I was out of her control. But a devil like me, it never worked. Indian mothers are the most typical ones; they always look after their sons, even after their marriage. Can you believe this a research says most of the ‘First Night’ date of a male Indian has been decided by his mother? Interesting isn’t it. Their control level is as such they even decide when her son should fuck his wife.

But there is no doubt in their love. Only thing when its goes over the limits. Every young Indian has a fashion designer in his house in the shape of his mother who decides what his son should be wearing. Since a Gay man is sensitive and emotional, he becomes a victim of this love bonding from his mother. So coming out to his mom might be one of the most difficult and complicated thing in the world. Its not easier to say ‘Mom, I am gay’. Because they can never accept their son is gay

One of my friend who is gay recently came out to his mom on the phone, she started crying and screaming for nearly 35 minutes, finally my friend had to convince her by accepting to go for a treatment. She might have thought her son is insane. May be in ‘Another Gay movie’ but not in India, An Indian mother never going to say ‘What took you so long’ when you come out to her.

And these days Indian teenagers face tremendous amount of pressure from their parents, they don’t even have time to determine or explore their sexuality neither do they have choice for privacy. And I heard after the 377 ruling most of the Indian mothers are not allowing their son to have sleep over with their close friend. Many thanks to the online media and also the visual media which has been screaming about LGBT for the past 6 months, they are somehow exposed to things lately.

I had a little argument with my friend few days back about marriage. Though he is matured and very knowledgeable person he wanted to marry a girl even though he knows he is gay, just because he wanted to make his mom happy. I thought it was ridiculous idea, but I don’t want to be judgmental about him and ended the argument saying he can take whatever decision he likes on his marriage but he must be careful while taking a decision which involves another girl’s life not just his mom.

Counseling centres conducting counseling for parents of the LGBT people which is a good sign. I think it is the parents who need counseling the most than the LGBT themselves. If at all there is any book about ‘How to come out to your mother’ in India, I think the book should deserves a Pulitzer Prize. I can still remember my last Christmas when I wanted to buy a black shirt, my mom played a melodrama finally I had to buy a different colour. Well I love my mother and I had no choice!

Written by: Vikki

Conflicts

0 I am straight
1 I like girls
2 I never had sex with a girl
3 I am not getting any girls to sleep with
4 So had to masturbate myself thinking about girls
5 I am masturbating everyday, even thrice a day
6 Its so boring masturbating alone
7 I wouldn’t mind masturbating along with my close friend and talk about girls
8 My close friend’s cock is bigger than mine
9 He is also watching my erected cock
0 Why the hell, he is looking at my cock
1 May be he is gay and he likes cocks
2 Nobody ever touched my cock before
3 May be he wants to touch mine
4 When I asked him to touch mine, he did with desperation
5 Oh my god, he is so gay
6 I am not like him, I am so straight, I like girls only
7 If I get a girl I can fuck her hard
8 He started jerking me off now
9 His hands are so soft like a girl’s
0 I am having a hard on and about to cum
1 He came closer and took my cock in his mouth
2 I felt so good, it was so warm
3 I started fucking his mouth like fucking a vagina
4 I came in buckets, he drank all my cum
5 I hate him now, he misused me
6 If I ever knew he is gay, I would never become his friend
7 What he is doing is so unnatural
8 But he can never change, he is born as gay
9 He is my best friend, I can’t leave him
0 We were watching porn and he sucked me off
1 I was so drunk on another day, I sucked his cock
2 He introduced me to a dating website for gays
3 There were so many cute bottom guys who are young and feminine
4 I had sex with few of them and fucked them like fucking a girl
6 My best friend told me I am a bisexual, may be he is right
5 I will have sex with guys till I find a beautiful girl
6 Girls are really tough to get in India
7 My best friend told me he is in love with me for several years
8 I shouted at him for being so evil and misused our true friendship
9 My parents want me to marry a girl
0 Society will never accept a gay
1 I have decided to marry a girl and stop all these gay things
2 I like my wife
3 After few months my best friend sucked my cock again
4 I liked it, he is the best in blow job
5 I found few more guys from the website, they were all so hot
6 I had arguments with my wife
7 We are fighting everyday
8 I had sex with my best friend, it was the best
9 I like him so much, he cares for me
0 He said he still loves me so much
1 I shouldn’t have married
2 I went to a gay party, I liked group sex
3 I hate my home
4 I am drinking a lot these days
5 I am having plenty of group sex these days
6 I have two children
7 My wife complaints for not taking care of the family
8 I hate to be a family man, I just want to be happy
9 I think I am not really a Straight guy
0 Am I Gay?

Chennai Dost - A Change

Written by: Dev

What could be new and interesting in a typical college student’s life.. pretty much the same boring lectures , hang outs in the same boring spots, straight acts before friends and family.. though I like fairy tales ( remember .. I m gay) I was never expecting anything magical in life , I never wasted time in believing miracles..

Though I love blowing, the fact that I have to live in pardha for the rest of my life blowed me to pieces. Hook ups and break ups were two things I hated the most but couldn’t resist it either. Love never loved me and interests in hurting me. Time never let me collect my shattered fragments . I m nothing but a typical gay, longing for some changes in life and in the society. Also I knew very well that sitting safe in the closet and expecting something new to happen is absurd.

Used to wonder what can ‘I’ do, what an immature, unexperienced , slow learning gay can do other than watching movies like ‘MILK’ and hoping for something like that to happen in ‘ INDIA’ with crossed fingers.

I felt like in the middle of an ocean with no clue where to go & what to do. People normally walk over the stones and thorns to reach their destination with little bit difficulty assigned by the almighty. But isn’t it unfair that gays have to walk through these path with no destination , with no idea what they are supposed to do, what could be done for their betterment , who would help them in finding the way home???

Being gay was fun once, but not anymore, its full of doubts now. should I come out ? will my parents accept me? will my friends treat me in the same way ,if they know who I am ? will I find true love? if I find one, will it last long? Even if it lasts long, are we gonna be accepted in the society? I have been through a phase where I got scared of question marks and thought that living with closed eyes would be a solution. What I mean is, to lead a STRAIGHT life, which I learnt would never work and ended up hurting myself , again... Been through another phase where I thought of having no more sex with anyone but one, the special one. After learning that such things would work out well in dreams and movies, hardly in reality, I was left with no place to go .. isn’t it terrible, when you want to do something but have no idea how to do.

Believe me guys, Miracles do happen but mostly happens just like that , it goes unnoticed. My old friend , Vikranth , current director of Chennai Dost , called me one late evening and said about the meetings they organize where they discuss about coming out, gay relations etc.. while listening him little I knew that its gonna dawn very soon, taken by curiosity I attended one such meeting …. Something in me said that being part of such an organization would make me a part of history.. am I not right , I am part of a history now.

I got my own bunch of guys with whom I hang out the very same spot but no more its boring, no more I pretend to be straight , no more I worry about acceptance. I don’t bother swimming in any ocean with this guys. I am no more tormented by questions.

I felt something happened in me. My old friends said some thing is wrong with me. my family says something is into me .. guess what – A Change.. .

Written by: Dev

Most beautiful creature in the world?

Written by: Vikki

Who is the most beautiful creature in the world? Men or Women?

I guess there will be three kinds of answers for this question. If you ask the above question to a heterosexual guy he will say ‘women are the most beautiful creature in the world’, if you ask the same question to a gay man of course he is going to say ‘there is nothing beautiful than looking at a nude male body’, if you ask the same question to a heterosexual woman she will snap at you ‘I am the most beautiful creature in the world’ and then she will start complaining on asking her such silly question when there is an obvious answer to it. Well, lesbians are different they are going to acknowledge only another women as beautiful creature.

Being a Research analyst by profession, I thought of doing some analysis on this and find out the right answer. Being a gay man I must go with the second answer especially after I watched all those sexy male models walking in the ramp at Chennai Dost’s recent V-Day Fashion show. The moment they appeared in the ramp showing their naked chest and abs. Oh my god, the crowd gone mad. The cuts and veins of those erotic male bodies were all over the place. Some of them even have shown the beginning of their pubic hairs. And when they appeared in their bikinis, the bulges were the only object put in front for display. Crowd around me applauded some even blowing whistle with their erections in their jeans. I was beginning to accept Newton’s theory.

Long time back I had a fortunate opportunity to watch some of my volleyball teammates taking bath in nude. There were different types of male bodies were on display to do my studies on human body in that instant on a male body. Slim figure, muscular, gym fit, tall and broad, short and simple to categorize all those bodies, trust me it was the most difficult study in the world, even Uncle Dawson would have struggled. I was having a hard time with my hard-on looking at those beautiful chests, abs, shoulders, butts and forgot to mention the COCKS. My mathematical graduation was helping me to do the measurements. Well, lets just accept the fact that men are the most beautiful creature in the world. If any of you have any doubts on it, just take a trip to a volleyball team’s rest room.



Whenever I browse any magazine or advertisement I was irritated by looking at all those skinny female models showing off their cleavage and stuffs, I used to think why is that always a female being portrayed as beauty but not a male. Even a fewer underwear ads made my mind go crazy. It is a heterosexual world dominated by men. How about a marginalized section like Gay community, even to explore their sexuality they had to depend upon their cousins or close friends. Coming back to the point, I think COCKS deserved more compliment than boobs which does nothing than simulating in sex.

Recently I was watching one of my friend’s Fashion show in Double Inn. Before the actual collection began there were few female models wearing their mini skirts walking in the ramp and then followed by the male models with the men collections, I was actually started thinking may be women are the most beautiful creature as some of our contemporary poets says. There was no one than Da Vinci who portrayed a human male body than any other, but even he was tattooed as Gay by the heterosexual world. There is no wonder it was one sided when treating women as the beautiful creature.

In any other creature in the world like a peocock, deer, lion, cock when it is always a male has been considered as beautiful, how come in a human world a female can be considered as beautiful? If there could be a debate on the same subject I would like to give a judgement on saying that naturally men are beautiful but women are the most groomed and hence beautiful creature in the world. But if i say this I know people will put forth my gay identity in front and forget about my analysis skills.

While I was thinking about this topic, I was watching him lying in the bed next to me, I could hear his long breath, his dark eyelids and red lips were closed, there were few hairs falling over his face trying to hide his beauty, he was keeping his head on the pillows lightly as if it will get hurt. He kept his left hand on his cheek to give himself some support, he was sleeping only with his shorts on and I could see his smooth chest moving up and down for breath. Fuck all those studies and analysis; my boyfriend is the most beautiful creature in the world. Of course beauty lies beneath the eyes of the beholder.


Written by: Vikki

GAY ISSUES WORKSHOP

Chennai Dost Invites You for a workshop on "GAY ISSUES" for GB community On Feb 21 Sunday. The workshop Comprises of a video Presentation followed by Discussion in regards to parent Support, Sexual Identity, Coming out, Its benefits for details Contact: 95516 30213

Venue: ECR

The Hindu press release of CD's VDay Celebrations

Click here

http://www.hindu.com/mp/2010/02/13/stories/2010021351200800.htm

Chennai Rainbow Coalition 2009 Highlights

http://orinam.net/2009-chennai-rainbow-coalition-highlights/

Sangama Organizes a Day Workshop

This is for your kind attention, Sangama, chennai organizes for a day workshop for LGBT community. Mr.Aravind - Alternative Law Forum, Bangalore takes session on recent Judgment on Sec.377 of IPC , Mr.Babu - Sangama 's chennai Advocate takes a session on basic rights like Immoral Traffic Prevention Act 1956, Rights to patients, What you should know about the police, Your Rights if arrested etc., I would like to invite the community people to participate the workshop.

Venue : Asha Nivas,
No: 9, Rutland Gate ,
5 th Street,
Chennai - 600 006
Ph - 044 - 28333311, 28330772
(Opp to Taj coramandal road leads to Asha Nivas)

Time : 10.30 am to 4.00 pm

Please feel free to call Shiva - 9840699776
Please call and confirm your presence.

Thanks & Regards
Shiva
Sangama
Chennai

Guess The now poster Suits The community Or oh!! NO Last One was Classic

Well you can see the change of the old poster to the new one, I just not able to see the clear picture of Minds of our people about what they think about this new poster. Will they love it? or they need a new form ? I need the comments from you friends about the change of new Poster.

where as you can also compare it with the old one as well.

Glorious year 2009

I had to admit it was a tiresome year in 2009. I was running along with the fastest world and its transformation, there was no stopping for the Gay community especially in Chennai. I don’t remember exactly where and when it started, the Queer movement was all over and never ending. It was colorful like the Rainbow flag. I just stepped on it and it took me to a different planet, it was all Gay. I was chanting, proud and then embracing its glory all around.

I could remember my lonely New Year celebration last year in 2008 and comparing with the 2009. Thankfully I had a world to live and celebrate. This infact with more joy, I was riding my bike as fast as I could feeling the warmth of my boyfriend behind me. It was a wordless Wordsworth poem. I was all excited, I never had a lovely New year party than ever. I turned around and saw his beautiful face. It was the freedom I was breathing on that day. Many thanks to Chennai Rainbow Pride.

We were thanking and celebrating the glorious year 2009. Chennai Dost guys were chanting and dancing. Our DJ was rocking. Sunil Menon appeared in his usual kurda design wear. Good looking guys were walking on the ramp trying to compete one another in the Chennai Dost beauty contest. Finally the best one was judged and received Mr.Chennai Dost title.

I was standing alone in a corner surrounded by dark, trying to recollect what we have achieved. We have created a social space through organizing parties for the Gay and Bisexual men in Chennai. Agreed it was an achievement that no one was willing to do earlier. Movie screenings were successful by screening movies on different themes to provide some light on our guys. And then supporting the activities of our LGBT support groups. Appeared on several media raising LGBT issues. And then finally Chennai Dost participated in Chennai Rainbow Pride along with the support groups.

We still had to go a long way. Its going to be another tiresome year in 2010 for both me and Chennai Dost. Personally I am planning to move along to a new house with my boyfriend. And then trying to partner with few more friends to expand my business. Shifting to a new company to anchor my career. Bring in my parents from Bangalore to Chennai and find a nice life environment for me. And for Chennai Dost we are working on to launch the online magazine for GB community in Chennai. Open an office for Chennai dost and start a helpline center. Yes, it is going to be another tiresome year. But who cares, there are plenty of friends to help, plenty of members to encourage, hundreds of readers to wish and then God to bless. 2010 is going to be another Glorious year. It is just there infront of my eyesight to reach. I am getting ready with my running shoes for the next race.

written by: Vikki

Happy New Year 2010

Dear CD Members

2009 was an eventful and successful year for both CHENNAI DOST and Chennai GB community. We would like to thank you for the support you have given us. We hope this will continue in 2010 with more excitement and entertainment.

CHENNAI DOST wishes you all a happy and glorious New Year 2010...May this new year fulfill your dreams and help you to find your dream boy.

Happy New Year 2010

Cheers
Chennai Dost Team

Collection of unfinished postings

Written by: Vikki

As of now I have received nearly 30 mails and several messages inquiring about my lack of regular postings in this blog. I would like to apologize to my regular readers for my laziness. Also I am due to release my new novel and had to spend some time on finishing it, publishers are behind my butt and kicking it. I have started writing few more articles on some interesting topics and will post it shortly. So for the period of time, here is a collection of my unfinished postings.

August 2009

Last few weeks i have been trying to get rid of 2 cockroaches and a little mouse out of my bedroom...they are so adamant and now seems completely taken over the control of my bedroom...henceworth i have been forced to sleep in the hall these days...dont think iam scared of these creatures, i just cant sleep with them when iam not sure of their sexuality, if someone could tell me how to find the sexuality of these cockroaches, it would be really great, i can even send these creatures to your place provided you are a bisexual...the question here is "How to determine someone's sexuality?"...period

Our regular reader Siva asked me to write about the Gay meet i have arranged few months back...Well, as usual it was a disaster...the announcement i have made was too late and there were only 4 guys turned up for the great event...and trust me Siva there is nothing to write about...my uncle in Malaysia starting up a new business and he wants me to take care of it...since Malaysia is kind of native for my mom, iam under severe pressure to catch my flight to Malaysia...iam not yet decided on this, atleast for another 2 years i wanted to stay in Chennai and give a try to find someone special, enrich my career etc

To take my mind off (see, i have a reason), i started dating(please note Dating not mating) guys again...so why am I giving this information? Well I thought you might wanted to know…lol

April 2009

Besant nagar beach has become the latest cruising spot for all PlanetRomeo men. The moment you walk down the footpath you can find at least one guy from g4m in every single meter distance. Last evening I was waiting for a guy whom I have been talking to, on the phone for sometime now. The guy didn’t turn up on time, but I found a group of friends from g4m and joined them. After few minutes there were at least 6 to 10 guys from g4m who have recognized me. And I was happy that they came and spoke to me about our blog and Chennai Dost blah blah blah. It was a proud moment for me when I have realized how much Chennai Dost have reached our people. We were cracking jokes and having fun. Some guys even started talking about the guys who were passing by. I know its naughty but im still young and I enjoyed it anyway. We have decided to go a nearby restaurant and have something for our appetite.

It was a New Mexican restaurant with bright interior designing. We were there for more than 20 minutes waiting for someone to take the order from us, nobody turned up. We were the only people who were in the restaurant. One of our friends got irritated by this kind of service from a new restaurant; he suggested that we must leave the restaurant as unnoticed. As I am always lazy to move my butt, I refused to leave the restaurant and tried to justify my decision by saying “sorry, we can’t leave, I have already used 2 napkins (tissue paper) from the table and drank half glass water”. I forced my other friends to stay with me. After another 30 long minutes a guy came and took the order. I must say the Mexican burger was too cold and the Pepsi they gave me was even warmer. When we left the restaurant we were seriously thinking in our mind which one among us suggested this restaurant in the first place.

We returned back to the footpath and sat just opposite to Barista which is our favorite spot. I must say after the Gay Pride and Court Verdict most of the guys in Chennai have become curious about Gays and gay sex even the damn straight ones. Almost everyone who passed by us was looking at our group, almost everybody looks like gays. Early days it is tough to find out a gay in a group, but now it seems the opposite, it’s tough to find out a damn straight one in a group. I remember a joke which is about a Gay’s perception somebody said even gay’s pet animal is also a gay.

Somebody said there are 5 types of men in Chennai now. Straight looking gay men, Gay looking straight men, bi-curious straight men, confused bisexual men and obvious looking gay men (effeminate). Well, I totally agree to this after observing all the men in the footpath curiously looking at our gay group. One of my heterosexual friend said to me that being gay is much easier to have abundant sex and finding a guy than being a straight guy in India. He also cautioned me that by legalizing Gay sex in India, access to sex have become despicable and effortless, which might break the Indian tradition of sticking to one partner or long term commitment.

P.S: As usual the guy I was supposed to meet never turned up, seems like there is something terribly wrong with my Today’s fortune. Seems like my charming prince never going to let his horse out of the saddle and will never ride on it to reach my place, may be busy Traffic or the horse led him to some other beach by mistake…Fuck all those Cindrella stories I heard

Nov 2009

As i have informed before i started meeting few guys in person who have been following our blog, iam also chatting with them and answering to their queries thro mail...These are the follow up questions from the readers of our FAQ (Frequently Asked Questions) section of May month edition...

Iam thinking of getting married, but my penis is too small, is there anyway i can make it big? (asked by a 32 year old guy)
Iam looking for a sexy bottom in Mylapore, do you know anyone?
In previous "Boys don’t cry" section you have mentioned about Mohit, what happened after that? You had sex with him later on? Did you fuck him? What is his cock’s size? etc
Have you ever had Group sex? if so, may i know your experience? Is it healthy?
Are you Top or Bottom?
I have place tonight, do you like to come?
How many times we can masturbate in a given day?
You mentioned about your sexy straight friend Ar, May i have his number?
I don’t have a voter's identity card, how can i apply for that?
I would like to act in a Gay porn movie, can you help me?

After facing all these questions (totally gross man), im not really sure if i can start another FAQ section...To the people who have asked me these questions, i dont own any sex club here, im not desperate for sex or fun and life is not centered around cock, definitely not a 24 year old guy like me...period


Jan 2009

Prologue: As i said before that im going to write a gay novel, i have no idea about the script neither about storywriting. Infact these days i am not even reading novels, so my idea of writing a novel has been temporarily postponed. Someone said i should write short stories first to get some writing skills. If this story explicits communism or conservatism kindly excuse me for the blunder. Blame my mom for buying me all those Russian novels when i was a kid. After i have finished my short story i sent it to my mom by email for editing, i thought i should save you guys from reading my horrible English. Though my mom had no clue whatsoever about the story she asked me "Why are you digging shit?". I said "Well, i wrote about things which i know". My mom was furious now and she said "My son cant be a pig". I told her "Mom, deal with it, your son is living in this pig world". She said "Live the way you want, but please dont dig shit". I burst into laughter and replied her calmly "Mom, Your son is not only digging shit he is actually eating it". She didnt say anything she went silent and then hanged the phone.

Short Story: Pigs and Gigs

Once upon a time there was a forest (i have read so many stories this is how exactly it started). The name of the forest is Bliss. There were so many animals lived in Bliss like monkeys, wild donkeys, fox, bears, wolves and pigs. Pigs were the highest population in Bliss, so no wonder they ruled the forest. They made laws and rules of their own. Other animals just hate pigs, they felt pigs smells like anything and they had all the bad habits in the world for example digging and eating shit. Not only because of their highest number also because pigs considered themselves as intelligent and talented they never really mingle with the other animals. There were several types of pigs lived in Bliss. Geekie pigs, who thinks they are really talented and very good in numbers. Teen pigs these pigs are very trendy and have lot of bad attitude. Communist pigs who didnt like the hi-fi pigs…blah blah blah (it goes on like this, thank god I didn’t spend much time to continue with this stupid story)

Written by: Vikki

Chennai Dost's 3 day trip to Kodaikanal on 26th Dec

Bored of the tours and trips with your family and straight friends?

Looking to socialize with a more interesting friendly crowd?

Waiting for more fun and a memorable tour?

Chennai Dost presents a 3 day trip to Kodaikanal on 26,27 & 28th Dec, 2009

Rs.2000 /- per head

Package includes Travel & Accomodation

Register yourself before Dec 15th

For more details visit www.chennai-dost.blogspot.com

JUST DONT MISS...

Cheers
ChennaiDost Team

Poem: Coming out

Once I was there in that darkness filled with emptiness
Clouded with fears and scares threatening to kill nevertheless

I was there standing alone craving to let myself free
Fighting against odd spirits that very notion within me

It was tears all over; spreading its wings traveled all my life
‘Come out’ Liberation encouraged me with an enchanting smile

All my lies and fakes mounting like a lava periling an erupt
Control was not within me, it was the Orb warning to react

Time was running
My heart was dying

Glowing grey hairs portraying the lack of love in my days
Carved with loneliness barricading the truth in its ways

Nature seems to be their only artillery blocking my happiness
Choices are not chosen as virtues under our family values

I was enchained with their beliefs, covered with moral ethics
Killing the true me was considered mercy in their social clinics

Closeting in someone’s shoes hurting my horrified heart
Their Laughter was daunting me to accept that painful act

By resisting to lie
I refused to die

Written by: Vikki

Pink Text - Pink Xplosion party review

Written by: Sebastian

What is the nature of an explosion and what causes it to detonate? A sentence like this is likely to attract the roaming eyes of the secret services – as any mention of detonation these days is highly sensitive. However, there has to be a bang – but before there is a bang the ingredients have to be right.

Now we all have different ideas of what makes for a great party – some like to drink, some like to talk, some like to dance – and more besides – which I can’t discuss here….

We are all different and difference is what makes the world go round – so before I say anything else about what makes a party – I will say –

You have to begin somewhere – and where better than on the roof of a fancy bar overlooking a beach and the moonlit waves crashing on the shore? It was a grand setting indeed with the added blessing of a breeze to cool the wet t- shirts of the dancing diva’s who gave it their all on the dance floor –

All credit to those in pink who made the greatest effort on the floor – they lead the way with enthusiasm and managed to persuade even the shyest of men onto their feet.

The roof top setting was elegant and so people sat in chairs or talked, like cooing doves on benches beneath the stars. There were introductions and flirtations and guys meeting guys – which is always thrilling – in the open – relaxed and at ease – being themselves – beginning to feel a little more free – little by little……

There was dancing and drinks and food and guys and even a few girls – there were tall ones and short ones and fat ones and thin ones – old ones and young ones and cute ones and fun ones – there was a DJ and a dance floor and flashing lights and a sea breeze – it was a Saturday night in Chennai and it was a party for gay men ……the ingredients for an explosion were all in place.


So there was something for everyone – and that is no small achievement – it’s impossible to please everyone all the time – so if everyone got something from the event that is something good.

So, well done to the organizers – a step in the right direction – as well as a desire to make each event – each month – bigger and better!

As one who has been lucky enough to party in many gay capitals of the world from London, Paris, New York, LA and Sydney – I have to say – Chennai has something non of these cities have now – and that is that Chennai is fresh! Young! Excited by what is possible! Ready to break out and take risks – it’s New! And “newness,” as the great gay modernist poet Ezra Pound said – “is everything!”

Here’s to the next explosion!!

Written by: Sebastian

Waiting for you tonight...

Written by: Vikki

I was there waiting for his appearance, I was surrounded by hundreds of hot guys wearing different shades of dresses and looks, still I was looking for that special one. Somewhere in the corner of my mind the song from J Lo’s ‘Waiting for you tonight’ playing again and again. “ Will he be there tonight?”, “Even if he comes, will he talk to me?”, “Can I have that beautiful smile from him at least?”, millions of question arising in my little brain, it was multi-tasking.

After hours of torturing time finally he arrived. He was there standing tall with bunch of friends who looked even hottier. I was stoned, speechless. My time machine was running wild; it was in a feral state. The rehearsals I had for that first meet gone totally fuzzy, I had dreamt of that moment, prepared thousands of permutation and combination to approach him and introduce myself, but I lost my maths. I was just standing there like a Liberty statue, my heart was the only organ operating at that time pounding faster than drums of Sivamani.

He looked hotter than the pictures in his profile which I have gone through zillion of times. He was wearing an outfit which could pit my poor costume on that day. Arguably he was the most dazzling guy in the crowd. I saw him still standing there in the entrance waiting for something or someone, I had no clue. Then he just came in. I anchored myself 5 feet away from him when he passed me. I couldn’t move an inch. It was a Sadapti Express, which I could rewind and play in my mind hundred times at nights.

Somebody came and woke me up, I was totally lost myself in the woods. Where were those introduction speeches I have prepared all these days to talk with him? I had no idea if he noticed me, if he knew there was this crazy boy standing 5 feet away from him waiting for years to meet him? My second standard class teacher was shouting at me saying “You are a stupid boy, hopeless idiot”.

Now my sensor was all over him, I was closely watching every move of his. He turned 200 times and looked at people standing behind me. He glanced 100 times searching for someone. He smiled and laughed infinite times to get the attention of someone. I was wondering if he knew my name or at least he knew my existence. It was a horrible, pain taking night. Crashed my memories and fantasies I had all these days. I have managed to say ‘Hi’ to 99 guys out of 100 that night. It must be my worst nightmare. And then in the end I saw him leaving with bunch of hotties. He turned to say ‘Bye’ to someone standing next to me, in few seconds he vanished in the dark.

I came home and slept badly to erase my worst day of my life, if I could have a time machine, I can rewind and go back, say ‘Hi’ to him at least this time. Next morning was even more worse. My laptop was covered with dust. The coffee I drank was sugarless. The day started with pathetic moments. My internet connection was slower than tortoise. Finally I have managed to open my PR account and check the messages. There was just one message, it was from him saying “Seems you were too busy last night, you didn’t even notice me, not even one glance or smile, you said ‘Hi’ to everyone except me, i tried my best to get your attention and failed. I guess you didn’t see me, is it?”

Written by: Vikki

Beer at Bike n Barrel

Last night I was so weary, jaded and lonely. I was desperately needed a smash and stimulant so I dropped myself at Bike N Barrel to have some beer, listen to few numbers and watch good looking men. Thursday night always going to be less crowded and numbers from Bollywood movies. I gave an order for a beer to the sexy bartender out there and started to glance around.

There were different types of men, all good-looking faces, grimed with ecstasy created by the mood and music. Men with bellies over 40’s, newly wed men with their tired face and body after prolonging sex with their wife, late 20’s and early 30’s with their executive faces trying to find their feet among the crowd and then several young studs with lot of sexual energy and sexy smile. They were all their. I was sitting in a corner table trying to find my type and figure out if their any gays. But is there any way to find gays in public places or pubs like this? This must be a million dollar question in the Gay community today.

Wherever I go it has become my lucky destiny that I find someone my type, someone who is interested in me, someone who will give me that wanting smile, but today I was so worn-out to put an extra effort to even take a second look. There were so many cute faces, perfect bodies and sweet smiles. But is there anyone who is going to come to my table and ask me for a dance?

Fortunately or unfortunately I had gay encounters in strange places like traveling in a train or dancing in discotheques or shopping in a mall. There were always someone who will come and talk to me, ask my contact number etc. Sometimes I even wondered if my looks are so gay and obvious. I know that I am not effeminate to give an obvious look and impression in public, but probably the way I look at them or my smile might lure them and give all the right signals, I really wondered.

Back to Bikes, the music was so loud and the mood was swinging from back to forth. I saw him and his bulge in his arms. The gym toned guy might have been a kannadiga or telugu in his late 20’s was wearing tight shirts, tight jeans, it was tight all over. He was with his friend and I caught him staring at me once in a while. And then there was this twink in his early 20’s must be a mallu with a curly hair, causal shirt and low waist jeans. The curly hair twink had beers over his limit, trying to balance his feet. I saw him kissing his friend’s neck twice while dancing. He had lost his conscious then. There were two flabby guys wearing low waist dancing heavily in the floor and seems might loose their jeans anytime An European wearing a specs with a geek look reading some book and having his drink in a corner. Then there was this dark tall guy who has all the qualification to walk in the ramp with a sexy smile and flashing teeth sitting alone drinking. He was looking at his mobile phone, trying to find someone in his contact list to talk to; he must be really bored and lonely then.

Several men, different faces, and so many styles somewhere in the middle I lost my count. Then came the number from Kaminey, my feet was moving I went straight to the dark guy’s table. He noticed me and gave me a warm smile. I asked him “Wanna dance dude?” He didn’t reply, just stood up and grabbed my arm. We danced, danced, danced till DJ tired of playing another music. I could smell the perfume the dark guy was wearing. His arms around my shoulders and then my hips, breathing down my neck I can feel the warmth of his body more closely. I was not alone then, I was among the crowd dancing with a sexy stud, and the beer gave me energy to dance more, sing loud. I still had no idea How to find a gay guy in a crowd.

Written by: Vikki