I am writing this based on my first hand experience with Chennai dost and its founder Vikranth.This was my first experience of being with group of people of my own sexual orientation actually talking to them and taking guidance from them, especially Vikrant, founder and director of Chennai dost;a down to earth person who had tried his best to make as comfortable as possible at this place on my first visit.
Although this may be like a any newcomer’s first visit to Chennai dost, but for me it has been a special day of my life, for in fact it is the best day where i felt the least uncomfortable of my own sexual orientation could place myself physically being present with the like-minded people, with whom i have felt no guilt to speak about my sexuality, in fact am most grateful to Vikrant because of whom this organization saw its light of the day, and i could be here today.
Vikranth,who has a much wider experience of being in this society with his sexuality as compared to me, might have gone through many difficulties just because of his sexual orientation but this has not discouraged him, in fact apart from making a firm place for himself in this society he has taken initiative to create something that can be a great support for young people like me to believe that there is wonderful world for people like us, who have a different sexual orientation.
Being with Chennai Dost has made me to be more confident, strong about my sexuality rather then being regretful about me. So my request to any new people who visit this site, if you belong to LGBT don’t be in guilt by being in closet, come to Chennai dost,this is place built for people like us who feel guilty of their own sexual orientation just because of the society surrounding us. Just try to visit and it will be worth for your life.
Shane(shane_desouza@yahoo.com
New Posts of Chennai Dost will be available in our new Website
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Social Gathering for all Lesbian & Bisexual women in Chennai
Chennai Dost is planning to organize a social gathering for all lesbian and bisexual women in Chennai. Interested people are requested to register as a member of Chennai Dost. Please send your details to chennaidostt@gmail.com. Name, Phone number and email details are mandatory for member registration. For details contact 95516 30213.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Chennai Dost needs funds for Magazine
Chennai Dost is planning to launch an online magazine and a hardcover magazine to cover the lifestyle and entertainment of LGBT in Chennai. We are currently looking for funds and sponsors. Members and readers who are interested in providing monetory funds for the magazine can contact our PR at 95516 30213 for details
Cheers
Chennai Dost Team
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Indian mothers
Written by: Vikki
If at all there is any complicated creature in the world for understanding it must be an Indian mother. Mind you, it is so liberating to use the word ‘creature’. Because they are the unique creatures than any other. Every Indian mother plays a vital role in every young Indian’s life. They are always insecure about their son’s love. They are ready to do anything when they see a danger in their relationship. They have this mission called emotional blackmailing, their main weapon is crying. Especially a gay man’s mom. They can be even more threatening.
I have seen my mom many times, tried to control me and my decisions whenever she felt I was out of her control. But a devil like me, it never worked. Indian mothers are the most typical ones; they always look after their sons, even after their marriage. Can you believe this a research says most of the ‘First Night’ date of a male Indian has been decided by his mother? Interesting isn’t it. Their control level is as such they even decide when her son should fuck his wife.
But there is no doubt in their love. Only thing when its goes over the limits. Every young Indian has a fashion designer in his house in the shape of his mother who decides what his son should be wearing. Since a Gay man is sensitive and emotional, he becomes a victim of this love bonding from his mother. So coming out to his mom might be one of the most difficult and complicated thing in the world. Its not easier to say ‘Mom, I am gay’. Because they can never accept their son is gay
One of my friend who is gay recently came out to his mom on the phone, she started crying and screaming for nearly 35 minutes, finally my friend had to convince her by accepting to go for a treatment. She might have thought her son is insane. May be in ‘Another Gay movie’ but not in India, An Indian mother never going to say ‘What took you so long’ when you come out to her.
And these days Indian teenagers face tremendous amount of pressure from their parents, they don’t even have time to determine or explore their sexuality neither do they have choice for privacy. And I heard after the 377 ruling most of the Indian mothers are not allowing their son to have sleep over with their close friend. Many thanks to the online media and also the visual media which has been screaming about LGBT for the past 6 months, they are somehow exposed to things lately.
I had a little argument with my friend few days back about marriage. Though he is matured and very knowledgeable person he wanted to marry a girl even though he knows he is gay, just because he wanted to make his mom happy. I thought it was ridiculous idea, but I don’t want to be judgmental about him and ended the argument saying he can take whatever decision he likes on his marriage but he must be careful while taking a decision which involves another girl’s life not just his mom.
Counseling centres conducting counseling for parents of the LGBT people which is a good sign. I think it is the parents who need counseling the most than the LGBT themselves. If at all there is any book about ‘How to come out to your mother’ in India, I think the book should deserves a Pulitzer Prize. I can still remember my last Christmas when I wanted to buy a black shirt, my mom played a melodrama finally I had to buy a different colour. Well I love my mother and I had no choice!
Written by: Vikki
If at all there is any complicated creature in the world for understanding it must be an Indian mother. Mind you, it is so liberating to use the word ‘creature’. Because they are the unique creatures than any other. Every Indian mother plays a vital role in every young Indian’s life. They are always insecure about their son’s love. They are ready to do anything when they see a danger in their relationship. They have this mission called emotional blackmailing, their main weapon is crying. Especially a gay man’s mom. They can be even more threatening.
I have seen my mom many times, tried to control me and my decisions whenever she felt I was out of her control. But a devil like me, it never worked. Indian mothers are the most typical ones; they always look after their sons, even after their marriage. Can you believe this a research says most of the ‘First Night’ date of a male Indian has been decided by his mother? Interesting isn’t it. Their control level is as such they even decide when her son should fuck his wife.
But there is no doubt in their love. Only thing when its goes over the limits. Every young Indian has a fashion designer in his house in the shape of his mother who decides what his son should be wearing. Since a Gay man is sensitive and emotional, he becomes a victim of this love bonding from his mother. So coming out to his mom might be one of the most difficult and complicated thing in the world. Its not easier to say ‘Mom, I am gay’. Because they can never accept their son is gay
One of my friend who is gay recently came out to his mom on the phone, she started crying and screaming for nearly 35 minutes, finally my friend had to convince her by accepting to go for a treatment. She might have thought her son is insane. May be in ‘Another Gay movie’ but not in India, An Indian mother never going to say ‘What took you so long’ when you come out to her.
And these days Indian teenagers face tremendous amount of pressure from their parents, they don’t even have time to determine or explore their sexuality neither do they have choice for privacy. And I heard after the 377 ruling most of the Indian mothers are not allowing their son to have sleep over with their close friend. Many thanks to the online media and also the visual media which has been screaming about LGBT for the past 6 months, they are somehow exposed to things lately.
I had a little argument with my friend few days back about marriage. Though he is matured and very knowledgeable person he wanted to marry a girl even though he knows he is gay, just because he wanted to make his mom happy. I thought it was ridiculous idea, but I don’t want to be judgmental about him and ended the argument saying he can take whatever decision he likes on his marriage but he must be careful while taking a decision which involves another girl’s life not just his mom.
Counseling centres conducting counseling for parents of the LGBT people which is a good sign. I think it is the parents who need counseling the most than the LGBT themselves. If at all there is any book about ‘How to come out to your mother’ in India, I think the book should deserves a Pulitzer Prize. I can still remember my last Christmas when I wanted to buy a black shirt, my mom played a melodrama finally I had to buy a different colour. Well I love my mother and I had no choice!
Written by: Vikki
Conflicts
0 I am straight
1 I like girls
2 I never had sex with a girl
3 I am not getting any girls to sleep with
4 So had to masturbate myself thinking about girls
5 I am masturbating everyday, even thrice a day
6 Its so boring masturbating alone
7 I wouldn’t mind masturbating along with my close friend and talk about girls
8 My close friend’s cock is bigger than mine
9 He is also watching my erected cock
0 Why the hell, he is looking at my cock
1 May be he is gay and he likes cocks
2 Nobody ever touched my cock before
3 May be he wants to touch mine
4 When I asked him to touch mine, he did with desperation
5 Oh my god, he is so gay
6 I am not like him, I am so straight, I like girls only
7 If I get a girl I can fuck her hard
8 He started jerking me off now
9 His hands are so soft like a girl’s
0 I am having a hard on and about to cum
1 He came closer and took my cock in his mouth
2 I felt so good, it was so warm
3 I started fucking his mouth like fucking a vagina
4 I came in buckets, he drank all my cum
5 I hate him now, he misused me
6 If I ever knew he is gay, I would never become his friend
7 What he is doing is so unnatural
8 But he can never change, he is born as gay
9 He is my best friend, I can’t leave him
0 We were watching porn and he sucked me off
1 I was so drunk on another day, I sucked his cock
2 He introduced me to a dating website for gays
3 There were so many cute bottom guys who are young and feminine
4 I had sex with few of them and fucked them like fucking a girl
6 My best friend told me I am a bisexual, may be he is right
5 I will have sex with guys till I find a beautiful girl
6 Girls are really tough to get in India
7 My best friend told me he is in love with me for several years
8 I shouted at him for being so evil and misused our true friendship
9 My parents want me to marry a girl
0 Society will never accept a gay
1 I have decided to marry a girl and stop all these gay things
2 I like my wife
3 After few months my best friend sucked my cock again
4 I liked it, he is the best in blow job
5 I found few more guys from the website, they were all so hot
6 I had arguments with my wife
7 We are fighting everyday
8 I had sex with my best friend, it was the best
9 I like him so much, he cares for me
0 He said he still loves me so much
1 I shouldn’t have married
2 I went to a gay party, I liked group sex
3 I hate my home
4 I am drinking a lot these days
5 I am having plenty of group sex these days
6 I have two children
7 My wife complaints for not taking care of the family
8 I hate to be a family man, I just want to be happy
9 I think I am not really a Straight guy
0 Am I Gay?
1 I like girls
2 I never had sex with a girl
3 I am not getting any girls to sleep with
4 So had to masturbate myself thinking about girls
5 I am masturbating everyday, even thrice a day
6 Its so boring masturbating alone
7 I wouldn’t mind masturbating along with my close friend and talk about girls
8 My close friend’s cock is bigger than mine
9 He is also watching my erected cock
0 Why the hell, he is looking at my cock
1 May be he is gay and he likes cocks
2 Nobody ever touched my cock before
3 May be he wants to touch mine
4 When I asked him to touch mine, he did with desperation
5 Oh my god, he is so gay
6 I am not like him, I am so straight, I like girls only
7 If I get a girl I can fuck her hard
8 He started jerking me off now
9 His hands are so soft like a girl’s
0 I am having a hard on and about to cum
1 He came closer and took my cock in his mouth
2 I felt so good, it was so warm
3 I started fucking his mouth like fucking a vagina
4 I came in buckets, he drank all my cum
5 I hate him now, he misused me
6 If I ever knew he is gay, I would never become his friend
7 What he is doing is so unnatural
8 But he can never change, he is born as gay
9 He is my best friend, I can’t leave him
0 We were watching porn and he sucked me off
1 I was so drunk on another day, I sucked his cock
2 He introduced me to a dating website for gays
3 There were so many cute bottom guys who are young and feminine
4 I had sex with few of them and fucked them like fucking a girl
6 My best friend told me I am a bisexual, may be he is right
5 I will have sex with guys till I find a beautiful girl
6 Girls are really tough to get in India
7 My best friend told me he is in love with me for several years
8 I shouted at him for being so evil and misused our true friendship
9 My parents want me to marry a girl
0 Society will never accept a gay
1 I have decided to marry a girl and stop all these gay things
2 I like my wife
3 After few months my best friend sucked my cock again
4 I liked it, he is the best in blow job
5 I found few more guys from the website, they were all so hot
6 I had arguments with my wife
7 We are fighting everyday
8 I had sex with my best friend, it was the best
9 I like him so much, he cares for me
0 He said he still loves me so much
1 I shouldn’t have married
2 I went to a gay party, I liked group sex
3 I hate my home
4 I am drinking a lot these days
5 I am having plenty of group sex these days
6 I have two children
7 My wife complaints for not taking care of the family
8 I hate to be a family man, I just want to be happy
9 I think I am not really a Straight guy
0 Am I Gay?
Chennai Dost - A Change
Written by: Dev
What could be new and interesting in a typical college student’s life.. pretty much the same boring lectures , hang outs in the same boring spots, straight acts before friends and family.. though I like fairy tales ( remember .. I m gay) I was never expecting anything magical in life , I never wasted time in believing miracles..
Though I love blowing, the fact that I have to live in pardha for the rest of my life blowed me to pieces. Hook ups and break ups were two things I hated the most but couldn’t resist it either. Love never loved me and interests in hurting me. Time never let me collect my shattered fragments . I m nothing but a typical gay, longing for some changes in life and in the society. Also I knew very well that sitting safe in the closet and expecting something new to happen is absurd.
Used to wonder what can ‘I’ do, what an immature, unexperienced , slow learning gay can do other than watching movies like ‘MILK’ and hoping for something like that to happen in ‘ INDIA’ with crossed fingers.
I felt like in the middle of an ocean with no clue where to go & what to do. People normally walk over the stones and thorns to reach their destination with little bit difficulty assigned by the almighty. But isn’t it unfair that gays have to walk through these path with no destination , with no idea what they are supposed to do, what could be done for their betterment , who would help them in finding the way home???
Being gay was fun once, but not anymore, its full of doubts now. should I come out ? will my parents accept me? will my friends treat me in the same way ,if they know who I am ? will I find true love? if I find one, will it last long? Even if it lasts long, are we gonna be accepted in the society? I have been through a phase where I got scared of question marks and thought that living with closed eyes would be a solution. What I mean is, to lead a STRAIGHT life, which I learnt would never work and ended up hurting myself , again... Been through another phase where I thought of having no more sex with anyone but one, the special one. After learning that such things would work out well in dreams and movies, hardly in reality, I was left with no place to go .. isn’t it terrible, when you want to do something but have no idea how to do.
Believe me guys, Miracles do happen but mostly happens just like that , it goes unnoticed. My old friend , Vikranth , current director of Chennai Dost , called me one late evening and said about the meetings they organize where they discuss about coming out, gay relations etc.. while listening him little I knew that its gonna dawn very soon, taken by curiosity I attended one such meeting …. Something in me said that being part of such an organization would make me a part of history.. am I not right , I am part of a history now.
I got my own bunch of guys with whom I hang out the very same spot but no more its boring, no more I pretend to be straight , no more I worry about acceptance. I don’t bother swimming in any ocean with this guys. I am no more tormented by questions.
I felt something happened in me. My old friends said some thing is wrong with me. my family says something is into me .. guess what – A Change.. .
Written by: Dev
What could be new and interesting in a typical college student’s life.. pretty much the same boring lectures , hang outs in the same boring spots, straight acts before friends and family.. though I like fairy tales ( remember .. I m gay) I was never expecting anything magical in life , I never wasted time in believing miracles..
Though I love blowing, the fact that I have to live in pardha for the rest of my life blowed me to pieces. Hook ups and break ups were two things I hated the most but couldn’t resist it either. Love never loved me and interests in hurting me. Time never let me collect my shattered fragments . I m nothing but a typical gay, longing for some changes in life and in the society. Also I knew very well that sitting safe in the closet and expecting something new to happen is absurd.
Used to wonder what can ‘I’ do, what an immature, unexperienced , slow learning gay can do other than watching movies like ‘MILK’ and hoping for something like that to happen in ‘ INDIA’ with crossed fingers.
I felt like in the middle of an ocean with no clue where to go & what to do. People normally walk over the stones and thorns to reach their destination with little bit difficulty assigned by the almighty. But isn’t it unfair that gays have to walk through these path with no destination , with no idea what they are supposed to do, what could be done for their betterment , who would help them in finding the way home???
Being gay was fun once, but not anymore, its full of doubts now. should I come out ? will my parents accept me? will my friends treat me in the same way ,if they know who I am ? will I find true love? if I find one, will it last long? Even if it lasts long, are we gonna be accepted in the society? I have been through a phase where I got scared of question marks and thought that living with closed eyes would be a solution. What I mean is, to lead a STRAIGHT life, which I learnt would never work and ended up hurting myself , again... Been through another phase where I thought of having no more sex with anyone but one, the special one. After learning that such things would work out well in dreams and movies, hardly in reality, I was left with no place to go .. isn’t it terrible, when you want to do something but have no idea how to do.
Believe me guys, Miracles do happen but mostly happens just like that , it goes unnoticed. My old friend , Vikranth , current director of Chennai Dost , called me one late evening and said about the meetings they organize where they discuss about coming out, gay relations etc.. while listening him little I knew that its gonna dawn very soon, taken by curiosity I attended one such meeting …. Something in me said that being part of such an organization would make me a part of history.. am I not right , I am part of a history now.
I got my own bunch of guys with whom I hang out the very same spot but no more its boring, no more I pretend to be straight , no more I worry about acceptance. I don’t bother swimming in any ocean with this guys. I am no more tormented by questions.
I felt something happened in me. My old friends said some thing is wrong with me. my family says something is into me .. guess what – A Change.. .
Written by: Dev
Most beautiful creature in the world?
Written by: Vikki
Who is the most beautiful creature in the world? Men or Women?
I guess there will be three kinds of answers for this question. If you ask the above question to a heterosexual guy he will say ‘women are the most beautiful creature in the world’, if you ask the same question to a gay man of course he is going to say ‘there is nothing beautiful than looking at a nude male body’, if you ask the same question to a heterosexual woman she will snap at you ‘I am the most beautiful creature in the world’ and then she will start complaining on asking her such silly question when there is an obvious answer to it. Well, lesbians are different they are going to acknowledge only another women as beautiful creature.
Being a Research analyst by profession, I thought of doing some analysis on this and find out the right answer. Being a gay man I must go with the second answer especially after I watched all those sexy male models walking in the ramp at Chennai Dost’s recent V-Day Fashion show. The moment they appeared in the ramp showing their naked chest and abs. Oh my god, the crowd gone mad. The cuts and veins of those erotic male bodies were all over the place. Some of them even have shown the beginning of their pubic hairs. And when they appeared in their bikinis, the bulges were the only object put in front for display. Crowd around me applauded some even blowing whistle with their erections in their jeans. I was beginning to accept Newton’s theory.
Long time back I had a fortunate opportunity to watch some of my volleyball teammates taking bath in nude. There were different types of male bodies were on display to do my studies on human body in that instant on a male body. Slim figure, muscular, gym fit, tall and broad, short and simple to categorize all those bodies, trust me it was the most difficult study in the world, even Uncle Dawson would have struggled. I was having a hard time with my hard-on looking at those beautiful chests, abs, shoulders, butts and forgot to mention the COCKS. My mathematical graduation was helping me to do the measurements. Well, lets just accept the fact that men are the most beautiful creature in the world. If any of you have any doubts on it, just take a trip to a volleyball team’s rest room.
Whenever I browse any magazine or advertisement I was irritated by looking at all those skinny female models showing off their cleavage and stuffs, I used to think why is that always a female being portrayed as beauty but not a male. Even a fewer underwear ads made my mind go crazy. It is a heterosexual world dominated by men. How about a marginalized section like Gay community, even to explore their sexuality they had to depend upon their cousins or close friends. Coming back to the point, I think COCKS deserved more compliment than boobs which does nothing than simulating in sex.
Recently I was watching one of my friend’s Fashion show in Double Inn. Before the actual collection began there were few female models wearing their mini skirts walking in the ramp and then followed by the male models with the men collections, I was actually started thinking may be women are the most beautiful creature as some of our contemporary poets says. There was no one than Da Vinci who portrayed a human male body than any other, but even he was tattooed as Gay by the heterosexual world. There is no wonder it was one sided when treating women as the beautiful creature.
In any other creature in the world like a peocock, deer, lion, cock when it is always a male has been considered as beautiful, how come in a human world a female can be considered as beautiful? If there could be a debate on the same subject I would like to give a judgement on saying that naturally men are beautiful but women are the most groomed and hence beautiful creature in the world. But if i say this I know people will put forth my gay identity in front and forget about my analysis skills.
While I was thinking about this topic, I was watching him lying in the bed next to me, I could hear his long breath, his dark eyelids and red lips were closed, there were few hairs falling over his face trying to hide his beauty, he was keeping his head on the pillows lightly as if it will get hurt. He kept his left hand on his cheek to give himself some support, he was sleeping only with his shorts on and I could see his smooth chest moving up and down for breath. Fuck all those studies and analysis; my boyfriend is the most beautiful creature in the world. Of course beauty lies beneath the eyes of the beholder.
Written by: Vikki
Saturday, February 20, 2010
GAY ISSUES WORKSHOP
Chennai Dost Invites You for a workshop on "GAY ISSUES" for GB community On Feb 21 Sunday. The workshop Comprises of a video Presentation followed by Discussion in regards to parent Support, Sexual Identity, Coming out, Its benefits for details Contact: 95516 30213
Venue: ECR
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
The Hindu press release of CD's VDay Celebrations
Click here
http://www.hindu.com/mp/2010/02/13/stories/2010021351200800.htm
http://www.hindu.com/mp/2010/02/13/stories/2010021351200800.htm
Chennai Rainbow Coalition 2009 Highlights
http://orinam.net/2009-chennai-rainbow-coalition-highlights/
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Sangama Organizes a Day Workshop
This is for your kind attention, Sangama, chennai organizes for a day workshop for LGBT community. Mr.Aravind - Alternative Law Forum, Bangalore takes session on recent Judgment on Sec.377 of IPC , Mr.Babu - Sangama 's chennai Advocate takes a session on basic rights like Immoral Traffic Prevention Act 1956, Rights to patients, What you should know about the police, Your Rights if arrested etc., I would like to invite the community people to participate the workshop.
Venue : Asha Nivas,
No: 9, Rutland Gate ,
5 th Street,
Chennai - 600 006
Ph - 044 - 28333311, 28330772
(Opp to Taj coramandal road leads to Asha Nivas)
Time : 10.30 am to 4.00 pm
Please feel free to call Shiva - 9840699776
Please call and confirm your presence.
Thanks & Regards
Shiva
Sangama
Chennai
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Guess The now poster Suits The community Or oh!! NO Last One was Classic
Well you can see the change of the old poster to the new one, I just not able to see the clear picture of Minds of our people about what they think about this new poster. Will they love it? or they need a new form ? I need the comments from you friends about the change of new Poster.
where as you can also compare it with the old one as well.
Monday, January 4, 2010
Glorious year 2009
I had to admit it was a tiresome year in 2009. I was running along with the fastest world and its transformation, there was no stopping for the Gay community especially in Chennai. I don’t remember exactly where and when it started, the Queer movement was all over and never ending. It was colorful like the Rainbow flag. I just stepped on it and it took me to a different planet, it was all Gay. I was chanting, proud and then embracing its glory all around.
I could remember my lonely New Year celebration last year in 2008 and comparing with the 2009. Thankfully I had a world to live and celebrate. This infact with more joy, I was riding my bike as fast as I could feeling the warmth of my boyfriend behind me. It was a wordless Wordsworth poem. I was all excited, I never had a lovely New year party than ever. I turned around and saw his beautiful face. It was the freedom I was breathing on that day. Many thanks to Chennai Rainbow Pride.
We were thanking and celebrating the glorious year 2009. Chennai Dost guys were chanting and dancing. Our DJ was rocking. Sunil Menon appeared in his usual kurda design wear. Good looking guys were walking on the ramp trying to compete one another in the Chennai Dost beauty contest. Finally the best one was judged and received Mr.Chennai Dost title.
I was standing alone in a corner surrounded by dark, trying to recollect what we have achieved. We have created a social space through organizing parties for the Gay and Bisexual men in Chennai. Agreed it was an achievement that no one was willing to do earlier. Movie screenings were successful by screening movies on different themes to provide some light on our guys. And then supporting the activities of our LGBT support groups. Appeared on several media raising LGBT issues. And then finally Chennai Dost participated in Chennai Rainbow Pride along with the support groups.
We still had to go a long way. Its going to be another tiresome year in 2010 for both me and Chennai Dost. Personally I am planning to move along to a new house with my boyfriend. And then trying to partner with few more friends to expand my business. Shifting to a new company to anchor my career. Bring in my parents from Bangalore to Chennai and find a nice life environment for me. And for Chennai Dost we are working on to launch the online magazine for GB community in Chennai. Open an office for Chennai dost and start a helpline center. Yes, it is going to be another tiresome year. But who cares, there are plenty of friends to help, plenty of members to encourage, hundreds of readers to wish and then God to bless. 2010 is going to be another Glorious year. It is just there infront of my eyesight to reach. I am getting ready with my running shoes for the next race.
written by: Vikki
I could remember my lonely New Year celebration last year in 2008 and comparing with the 2009. Thankfully I had a world to live and celebrate. This infact with more joy, I was riding my bike as fast as I could feeling the warmth of my boyfriend behind me. It was a wordless Wordsworth poem. I was all excited, I never had a lovely New year party than ever. I turned around and saw his beautiful face. It was the freedom I was breathing on that day. Many thanks to Chennai Rainbow Pride.
We were thanking and celebrating the glorious year 2009. Chennai Dost guys were chanting and dancing. Our DJ was rocking. Sunil Menon appeared in his usual kurda design wear. Good looking guys were walking on the ramp trying to compete one another in the Chennai Dost beauty contest. Finally the best one was judged and received Mr.Chennai Dost title.
I was standing alone in a corner surrounded by dark, trying to recollect what we have achieved. We have created a social space through organizing parties for the Gay and Bisexual men in Chennai. Agreed it was an achievement that no one was willing to do earlier. Movie screenings were successful by screening movies on different themes to provide some light on our guys. And then supporting the activities of our LGBT support groups. Appeared on several media raising LGBT issues. And then finally Chennai Dost participated in Chennai Rainbow Pride along with the support groups.
We still had to go a long way. Its going to be another tiresome year in 2010 for both me and Chennai Dost. Personally I am planning to move along to a new house with my boyfriend. And then trying to partner with few more friends to expand my business. Shifting to a new company to anchor my career. Bring in my parents from Bangalore to Chennai and find a nice life environment for me. And for Chennai Dost we are working on to launch the online magazine for GB community in Chennai. Open an office for Chennai dost and start a helpline center. Yes, it is going to be another tiresome year. But who cares, there are plenty of friends to help, plenty of members to encourage, hundreds of readers to wish and then God to bless. 2010 is going to be another Glorious year. It is just there infront of my eyesight to reach. I am getting ready with my running shoes for the next race.
written by: Vikki
Friday, January 1, 2010
Happy New Year 2010
Dear CD Members
2009 was an eventful and successful year for both CHENNAI DOST and Chennai GB community. We would like to thank you for the support you have given us. We hope this will continue in 2010 with more excitement and entertainment.
CHENNAI DOST wishes you all a happy and glorious New Year 2010...May this new year fulfill your dreams and help you to find your dream boy.
Happy New Year 2010
Cheers
Chennai Dost Team
Friday, December 4, 2009
Collection of unfinished postings
Written by: Vikki
As of now I have received nearly 30 mails and several messages inquiring about my lack of regular postings in this blog. I would like to apologize to my regular readers for my laziness. Also I am due to release my new novel and had to spend some time on finishing it, publishers are behind my butt and kicking it. I have started writing few more articles on some interesting topics and will post it shortly. So for the period of time, here is a collection of my unfinished postings.
August 2009
Last few weeks i have been trying to get rid of 2 cockroaches and a little mouse out of my bedroom...they are so adamant and now seems completely taken over the control of my bedroom...henceworth i have been forced to sleep in the hall these days...dont think iam scared of these creatures, i just cant sleep with them when iam not sure of their sexuality, if someone could tell me how to find the sexuality of these cockroaches, it would be really great, i can even send these creatures to your place provided you are a bisexual...the question here is "How to determine someone's sexuality?"...period
Our regular reader Siva asked me to write about the Gay meet i have arranged few months back...Well, as usual it was a disaster...the announcement i have made was too late and there were only 4 guys turned up for the great event...and trust me Siva there is nothing to write about...my uncle in Malaysia starting up a new business and he wants me to take care of it...since Malaysia is kind of native for my mom, iam under severe pressure to catch my flight to Malaysia...iam not yet decided on this, atleast for another 2 years i wanted to stay in Chennai and give a try to find someone special, enrich my career etc
To take my mind off (see, i have a reason), i started dating(please note Dating not mating) guys again...so why am I giving this information? Well I thought you might wanted to know…lol
April 2009
Besant nagar beach has become the latest cruising spot for all PlanetRomeo men. The moment you walk down the footpath you can find at least one guy from g4m in every single meter distance. Last evening I was waiting for a guy whom I have been talking to, on the phone for sometime now. The guy didn’t turn up on time, but I found a group of friends from g4m and joined them. After few minutes there were at least 6 to 10 guys from g4m who have recognized me. And I was happy that they came and spoke to me about our blog and Chennai Dost blah blah blah. It was a proud moment for me when I have realized how much Chennai Dost have reached our people. We were cracking jokes and having fun. Some guys even started talking about the guys who were passing by. I know its naughty but im still young and I enjoyed it anyway. We have decided to go a nearby restaurant and have something for our appetite.
It was a New Mexican restaurant with bright interior designing. We were there for more than 20 minutes waiting for someone to take the order from us, nobody turned up. We were the only people who were in the restaurant. One of our friends got irritated by this kind of service from a new restaurant; he suggested that we must leave the restaurant as unnoticed. As I am always lazy to move my butt, I refused to leave the restaurant and tried to justify my decision by saying “sorry, we can’t leave, I have already used 2 napkins (tissue paper) from the table and drank half glass water”. I forced my other friends to stay with me. After another 30 long minutes a guy came and took the order. I must say the Mexican burger was too cold and the Pepsi they gave me was even warmer. When we left the restaurant we were seriously thinking in our mind which one among us suggested this restaurant in the first place.
We returned back to the footpath and sat just opposite to Barista which is our favorite spot. I must say after the Gay Pride and Court Verdict most of the guys in Chennai have become curious about Gays and gay sex even the damn straight ones. Almost everyone who passed by us was looking at our group, almost everybody looks like gays. Early days it is tough to find out a gay in a group, but now it seems the opposite, it’s tough to find out a damn straight one in a group. I remember a joke which is about a Gay’s perception somebody said even gay’s pet animal is also a gay.
Somebody said there are 5 types of men in Chennai now. Straight looking gay men, Gay looking straight men, bi-curious straight men, confused bisexual men and obvious looking gay men (effeminate). Well, I totally agree to this after observing all the men in the footpath curiously looking at our gay group. One of my heterosexual friend said to me that being gay is much easier to have abundant sex and finding a guy than being a straight guy in India. He also cautioned me that by legalizing Gay sex in India, access to sex have become despicable and effortless, which might break the Indian tradition of sticking to one partner or long term commitment.
P.S: As usual the guy I was supposed to meet never turned up, seems like there is something terribly wrong with my Today’s fortune. Seems like my charming prince never going to let his horse out of the saddle and will never ride on it to reach my place, may be busy Traffic or the horse led him to some other beach by mistake…Fuck all those Cindrella stories I heard
Nov 2009
As i have informed before i started meeting few guys in person who have been following our blog, iam also chatting with them and answering to their queries thro mail...These are the follow up questions from the readers of our FAQ (Frequently Asked Questions) section of May month edition...
Iam thinking of getting married, but my penis is too small, is there anyway i can make it big? (asked by a 32 year old guy)
Iam looking for a sexy bottom in Mylapore, do you know anyone?
In previous "Boys don’t cry" section you have mentioned about Mohit, what happened after that? You had sex with him later on? Did you fuck him? What is his cock’s size? etc
Have you ever had Group sex? if so, may i know your experience? Is it healthy?
Are you Top or Bottom?
I have place tonight, do you like to come?
How many times we can masturbate in a given day?
You mentioned about your sexy straight friend Ar, May i have his number?
I don’t have a voter's identity card, how can i apply for that?
I would like to act in a Gay porn movie, can you help me?
After facing all these questions (totally gross man), im not really sure if i can start another FAQ section...To the people who have asked me these questions, i dont own any sex club here, im not desperate for sex or fun and life is not centered around cock, definitely not a 24 year old guy like me...period
Jan 2009
Prologue: As i said before that im going to write a gay novel, i have no idea about the script neither about storywriting. Infact these days i am not even reading novels, so my idea of writing a novel has been temporarily postponed. Someone said i should write short stories first to get some writing skills. If this story explicits communism or conservatism kindly excuse me for the blunder. Blame my mom for buying me all those Russian novels when i was a kid. After i have finished my short story i sent it to my mom by email for editing, i thought i should save you guys from reading my horrible English. Though my mom had no clue whatsoever about the story she asked me "Why are you digging shit?". I said "Well, i wrote about things which i know". My mom was furious now and she said "My son cant be a pig". I told her "Mom, deal with it, your son is living in this pig world". She said "Live the way you want, but please dont dig shit". I burst into laughter and replied her calmly "Mom, Your son is not only digging shit he is actually eating it". She didnt say anything she went silent and then hanged the phone.
Short Story: Pigs and Gigs
Once upon a time there was a forest (i have read so many stories this is how exactly it started). The name of the forest is Bliss. There were so many animals lived in Bliss like monkeys, wild donkeys, fox, bears, wolves and pigs. Pigs were the highest population in Bliss, so no wonder they ruled the forest. They made laws and rules of their own. Other animals just hate pigs, they felt pigs smells like anything and they had all the bad habits in the world for example digging and eating shit. Not only because of their highest number also because pigs considered themselves as intelligent and talented they never really mingle with the other animals. There were several types of pigs lived in Bliss. Geekie pigs, who thinks they are really talented and very good in numbers. Teen pigs these pigs are very trendy and have lot of bad attitude. Communist pigs who didnt like the hi-fi pigs…blah blah blah (it goes on like this, thank god I didn’t spend much time to continue with this stupid story)
Written by: Vikki
As of now I have received nearly 30 mails and several messages inquiring about my lack of regular postings in this blog. I would like to apologize to my regular readers for my laziness. Also I am due to release my new novel and had to spend some time on finishing it, publishers are behind my butt and kicking it. I have started writing few more articles on some interesting topics and will post it shortly. So for the period of time, here is a collection of my unfinished postings.
August 2009
Last few weeks i have been trying to get rid of 2 cockroaches and a little mouse out of my bedroom...they are so adamant and now seems completely taken over the control of my bedroom...henceworth i have been forced to sleep in the hall these days...dont think iam scared of these creatures, i just cant sleep with them when iam not sure of their sexuality, if someone could tell me how to find the sexuality of these cockroaches, it would be really great, i can even send these creatures to your place provided you are a bisexual...the question here is "How to determine someone's sexuality?"...period
Our regular reader Siva asked me to write about the Gay meet i have arranged few months back...Well, as usual it was a disaster...the announcement i have made was too late and there were only 4 guys turned up for the great event...and trust me Siva there is nothing to write about...my uncle in Malaysia starting up a new business and he wants me to take care of it...since Malaysia is kind of native for my mom, iam under severe pressure to catch my flight to Malaysia...iam not yet decided on this, atleast for another 2 years i wanted to stay in Chennai and give a try to find someone special, enrich my career etc
To take my mind off (see, i have a reason), i started dating(please note Dating not mating) guys again...so why am I giving this information? Well I thought you might wanted to know…lol
April 2009
Besant nagar beach has become the latest cruising spot for all PlanetRomeo men. The moment you walk down the footpath you can find at least one guy from g4m in every single meter distance. Last evening I was waiting for a guy whom I have been talking to, on the phone for sometime now. The guy didn’t turn up on time, but I found a group of friends from g4m and joined them. After few minutes there were at least 6 to 10 guys from g4m who have recognized me. And I was happy that they came and spoke to me about our blog and Chennai Dost blah blah blah. It was a proud moment for me when I have realized how much Chennai Dost have reached our people. We were cracking jokes and having fun. Some guys even started talking about the guys who were passing by. I know its naughty but im still young and I enjoyed it anyway. We have decided to go a nearby restaurant and have something for our appetite.
It was a New Mexican restaurant with bright interior designing. We were there for more than 20 minutes waiting for someone to take the order from us, nobody turned up. We were the only people who were in the restaurant. One of our friends got irritated by this kind of service from a new restaurant; he suggested that we must leave the restaurant as unnoticed. As I am always lazy to move my butt, I refused to leave the restaurant and tried to justify my decision by saying “sorry, we can’t leave, I have already used 2 napkins (tissue paper) from the table and drank half glass water”. I forced my other friends to stay with me. After another 30 long minutes a guy came and took the order. I must say the Mexican burger was too cold and the Pepsi they gave me was even warmer. When we left the restaurant we were seriously thinking in our mind which one among us suggested this restaurant in the first place.
We returned back to the footpath and sat just opposite to Barista which is our favorite spot. I must say after the Gay Pride and Court Verdict most of the guys in Chennai have become curious about Gays and gay sex even the damn straight ones. Almost everyone who passed by us was looking at our group, almost everybody looks like gays. Early days it is tough to find out a gay in a group, but now it seems the opposite, it’s tough to find out a damn straight one in a group. I remember a joke which is about a Gay’s perception somebody said even gay’s pet animal is also a gay.
Somebody said there are 5 types of men in Chennai now. Straight looking gay men, Gay looking straight men, bi-curious straight men, confused bisexual men and obvious looking gay men (effeminate). Well, I totally agree to this after observing all the men in the footpath curiously looking at our gay group. One of my heterosexual friend said to me that being gay is much easier to have abundant sex and finding a guy than being a straight guy in India. He also cautioned me that by legalizing Gay sex in India, access to sex have become despicable and effortless, which might break the Indian tradition of sticking to one partner or long term commitment.
P.S: As usual the guy I was supposed to meet never turned up, seems like there is something terribly wrong with my Today’s fortune. Seems like my charming prince never going to let his horse out of the saddle and will never ride on it to reach my place, may be busy Traffic or the horse led him to some other beach by mistake…Fuck all those Cindrella stories I heard
Nov 2009
As i have informed before i started meeting few guys in person who have been following our blog, iam also chatting with them and answering to their queries thro mail...These are the follow up questions from the readers of our FAQ (Frequently Asked Questions) section of May month edition...
Iam thinking of getting married, but my penis is too small, is there anyway i can make it big? (asked by a 32 year old guy)
Iam looking for a sexy bottom in Mylapore, do you know anyone?
In previous "Boys don’t cry" section you have mentioned about Mohit, what happened after that? You had sex with him later on? Did you fuck him? What is his cock’s size? etc
Have you ever had Group sex? if so, may i know your experience? Is it healthy?
Are you Top or Bottom?
I have place tonight, do you like to come?
How many times we can masturbate in a given day?
You mentioned about your sexy straight friend Ar, May i have his number?
I don’t have a voter's identity card, how can i apply for that?
I would like to act in a Gay porn movie, can you help me?
After facing all these questions (totally gross man), im not really sure if i can start another FAQ section...To the people who have asked me these questions, i dont own any sex club here, im not desperate for sex or fun and life is not centered around cock, definitely not a 24 year old guy like me...period
Jan 2009
Prologue: As i said before that im going to write a gay novel, i have no idea about the script neither about storywriting. Infact these days i am not even reading novels, so my idea of writing a novel has been temporarily postponed. Someone said i should write short stories first to get some writing skills. If this story explicits communism or conservatism kindly excuse me for the blunder. Blame my mom for buying me all those Russian novels when i was a kid. After i have finished my short story i sent it to my mom by email for editing, i thought i should save you guys from reading my horrible English. Though my mom had no clue whatsoever about the story she asked me "Why are you digging shit?". I said "Well, i wrote about things which i know". My mom was furious now and she said "My son cant be a pig". I told her "Mom, deal with it, your son is living in this pig world". She said "Live the way you want, but please dont dig shit". I burst into laughter and replied her calmly "Mom, Your son is not only digging shit he is actually eating it". She didnt say anything she went silent and then hanged the phone.
Short Story: Pigs and Gigs
Once upon a time there was a forest (i have read so many stories this is how exactly it started). The name of the forest is Bliss. There were so many animals lived in Bliss like monkeys, wild donkeys, fox, bears, wolves and pigs. Pigs were the highest population in Bliss, so no wonder they ruled the forest. They made laws and rules of their own. Other animals just hate pigs, they felt pigs smells like anything and they had all the bad habits in the world for example digging and eating shit. Not only because of their highest number also because pigs considered themselves as intelligent and talented they never really mingle with the other animals. There were several types of pigs lived in Bliss. Geekie pigs, who thinks they are really talented and very good in numbers. Teen pigs these pigs are very trendy and have lot of bad attitude. Communist pigs who didnt like the hi-fi pigs…blah blah blah (it goes on like this, thank god I didn’t spend much time to continue with this stupid story)
Written by: Vikki
Chennai Dost's 3 day trip to Kodaikanal on 26th Dec
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Looking to socialize with a more interesting friendly crowd?
Waiting for more fun and a memorable tour?
Chennai Dost presents a 3 day trip to Kodaikanal on 26,27 & 28th Dec, 2009
Rs.2000 /- per head
Package includes Travel & Accomodation
Register yourself before Dec 15th
For more details visit www.chennai-dost.blogspot.com
JUST DONT MISS...
Cheers
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Friday, October 23, 2009
Poem: Coming out
Once I was there in that darkness filled with emptiness
Clouded with fears and scares threatening to kill nevertheless
I was there standing alone craving to let myself free
Fighting against odd spirits that very notion within me
It was tears all over; spreading its wings traveled all my life
‘Come out’ Liberation encouraged me with an enchanting smile
All my lies and fakes mounting like a lava periling an erupt
Control was not within me, it was the Orb warning to react
Time was running
My heart was dying
Glowing grey hairs portraying the lack of love in my days
Carved with loneliness barricading the truth in its ways
Nature seems to be their only artillery blocking my happiness
Choices are not chosen as virtues under our family values
I was enchained with their beliefs, covered with moral ethics
Killing the true me was considered mercy in their social clinics
Closeting in someone’s shoes hurting my horrified heart
Their Laughter was daunting me to accept that painful act
By resisting to lie
I refused to die
Written by: Vikki
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Pink Text - Pink Xplosion party review
Written by: Sebastian
What is the nature of an explosion and what causes it to detonate? A sentence like this is likely to attract the roaming eyes of the secret services – as any mention of detonation these days is highly sensitive. However, there has to be a bang – but before there is a bang the ingredients have to be right.
Now we all have different ideas of what makes for a great party – some like to drink, some like to talk, some like to dance – and more besides – which I can’t discuss here….
We are all different and difference is what makes the world go round – so before I say anything else about what makes a party – I will say –
You have to begin somewhere – and where better than on the roof of a fancy bar overlooking a beach and the moonlit waves crashing on the shore? It was a grand setting indeed with the added blessing of a breeze to cool the wet t- shirts of the dancing diva’s who gave it their all on the dance floor –
All credit to those in pink who made the greatest effort on the floor – they lead the way with enthusiasm and managed to persuade even the shyest of men onto their feet.
The roof top setting was elegant and so people sat in chairs or talked, like cooing doves on benches beneath the stars. There were introductions and flirtations and guys meeting guys – which is always thrilling – in the open – relaxed and at ease – being themselves – beginning to feel a little more free – little by little……
There was dancing and drinks and food and guys and even a few girls – there were tall ones and short ones and fat ones and thin ones – old ones and young ones and cute ones and fun ones – there was a DJ and a dance floor and flashing lights and a sea breeze – it was a Saturday night in Chennai and it was a party for gay men ……the ingredients for an explosion were all in place.
So there was something for everyone – and that is no small achievement – it’s impossible to please everyone all the time – so if everyone got something from the event that is something good.
So, well done to the organizers – a step in the right direction – as well as a desire to make each event – each month – bigger and better!
As one who has been lucky enough to party in many gay capitals of the world from London, Paris, New York, LA and Sydney – I have to say – Chennai has something non of these cities have now – and that is that Chennai is fresh! Young! Excited by what is possible! Ready to break out and take risks – it’s New! And “newness,” as the great gay modernist poet Ezra Pound said – “is everything!”
Here’s to the next explosion!!
Written by: Sebastian
What is the nature of an explosion and what causes it to detonate? A sentence like this is likely to attract the roaming eyes of the secret services – as any mention of detonation these days is highly sensitive. However, there has to be a bang – but before there is a bang the ingredients have to be right.
Now we all have different ideas of what makes for a great party – some like to drink, some like to talk, some like to dance – and more besides – which I can’t discuss here….
We are all different and difference is what makes the world go round – so before I say anything else about what makes a party – I will say –
You have to begin somewhere – and where better than on the roof of a fancy bar overlooking a beach and the moonlit waves crashing on the shore? It was a grand setting indeed with the added blessing of a breeze to cool the wet t- shirts of the dancing diva’s who gave it their all on the dance floor –
All credit to those in pink who made the greatest effort on the floor – they lead the way with enthusiasm and managed to persuade even the shyest of men onto their feet.
The roof top setting was elegant and so people sat in chairs or talked, like cooing doves on benches beneath the stars. There were introductions and flirtations and guys meeting guys – which is always thrilling – in the open – relaxed and at ease – being themselves – beginning to feel a little more free – little by little……
There was dancing and drinks and food and guys and even a few girls – there were tall ones and short ones and fat ones and thin ones – old ones and young ones and cute ones and fun ones – there was a DJ and a dance floor and flashing lights and a sea breeze – it was a Saturday night in Chennai and it was a party for gay men ……the ingredients for an explosion were all in place.
So there was something for everyone – and that is no small achievement – it’s impossible to please everyone all the time – so if everyone got something from the event that is something good.
So, well done to the organizers – a step in the right direction – as well as a desire to make each event – each month – bigger and better!
As one who has been lucky enough to party in many gay capitals of the world from London, Paris, New York, LA and Sydney – I have to say – Chennai has something non of these cities have now – and that is that Chennai is fresh! Young! Excited by what is possible! Ready to break out and take risks – it’s New! And “newness,” as the great gay modernist poet Ezra Pound said – “is everything!”
Here’s to the next explosion!!
Written by: Sebastian
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Waiting for you tonight...
Written by: Vikki
I was there waiting for his appearance, I was surrounded by hundreds of hot guys wearing different shades of dresses and looks, still I was looking for that special one. Somewhere in the corner of my mind the song from J Lo’s ‘Waiting for you tonight’ playing again and again. “ Will he be there tonight?”, “Even if he comes, will he talk to me?”, “Can I have that beautiful smile from him at least?”, millions of question arising in my little brain, it was multi-tasking.
After hours of torturing time finally he arrived. He was there standing tall with bunch of friends who looked even hottier. I was stoned, speechless. My time machine was running wild; it was in a feral state. The rehearsals I had for that first meet gone totally fuzzy, I had dreamt of that moment, prepared thousands of permutation and combination to approach him and introduce myself, but I lost my maths. I was just standing there like a Liberty statue, my heart was the only organ operating at that time pounding faster than drums of Sivamani.
He looked hotter than the pictures in his profile which I have gone through zillion of times. He was wearing an outfit which could pit my poor costume on that day. Arguably he was the most dazzling guy in the crowd. I saw him still standing there in the entrance waiting for something or someone, I had no clue. Then he just came in. I anchored myself 5 feet away from him when he passed me. I couldn’t move an inch. It was a Sadapti Express, which I could rewind and play in my mind hundred times at nights.
Somebody came and woke me up, I was totally lost myself in the woods. Where were those introduction speeches I have prepared all these days to talk with him? I had no idea if he noticed me, if he knew there was this crazy boy standing 5 feet away from him waiting for years to meet him? My second standard class teacher was shouting at me saying “You are a stupid boy, hopeless idiot”.
Now my sensor was all over him, I was closely watching every move of his. He turned 200 times and looked at people standing behind me. He glanced 100 times searching for someone. He smiled and laughed infinite times to get the attention of someone. I was wondering if he knew my name or at least he knew my existence. It was a horrible, pain taking night. Crashed my memories and fantasies I had all these days. I have managed to say ‘Hi’ to 99 guys out of 100 that night. It must be my worst nightmare. And then in the end I saw him leaving with bunch of hotties. He turned to say ‘Bye’ to someone standing next to me, in few seconds he vanished in the dark.
I came home and slept badly to erase my worst day of my life, if I could have a time machine, I can rewind and go back, say ‘Hi’ to him at least this time. Next morning was even more worse. My laptop was covered with dust. The coffee I drank was sugarless. The day started with pathetic moments. My internet connection was slower than tortoise. Finally I have managed to open my PR account and check the messages. There was just one message, it was from him saying “Seems you were too busy last night, you didn’t even notice me, not even one glance or smile, you said ‘Hi’ to everyone except me, i tried my best to get your attention and failed. I guess you didn’t see me, is it?”
Written by: Vikki
Friday, September 18, 2009
Beer at Bike n Barrel
Last night I was so weary, jaded and lonely. I was desperately needed a smash and stimulant so I dropped myself at Bike N Barrel to have some beer, listen to few numbers and watch good looking men. Thursday night always going to be less crowded and numbers from Bollywood movies. I gave an order for a beer to the sexy bartender out there and started to glance around.
There were different types of men, all good-looking faces, grimed with ecstasy created by the mood and music. Men with bellies over 40’s, newly wed men with their tired face and body after prolonging sex with their wife, late 20’s and early 30’s with their executive faces trying to find their feet among the crowd and then several young studs with lot of sexual energy and sexy smile. They were all their. I was sitting in a corner table trying to find my type and figure out if their any gays. But is there any way to find gays in public places or pubs like this? This must be a million dollar question in the Gay community today.
Wherever I go it has become my lucky destiny that I find someone my type, someone who is interested in me, someone who will give me that wanting smile, but today I was so worn-out to put an extra effort to even take a second look. There were so many cute faces, perfect bodies and sweet smiles. But is there anyone who is going to come to my table and ask me for a dance?
Fortunately or unfortunately I had gay encounters in strange places like traveling in a train or dancing in discotheques or shopping in a mall. There were always someone who will come and talk to me, ask my contact number etc. Sometimes I even wondered if my looks are so gay and obvious. I know that I am not effeminate to give an obvious look and impression in public, but probably the way I look at them or my smile might lure them and give all the right signals, I really wondered.
Back to Bikes, the music was so loud and the mood was swinging from back to forth. I saw him and his bulge in his arms. The gym toned guy might have been a kannadiga or telugu in his late 20’s was wearing tight shirts, tight jeans, it was tight all over. He was with his friend and I caught him staring at me once in a while. And then there was this twink in his early 20’s must be a mallu with a curly hair, causal shirt and low waist jeans. The curly hair twink had beers over his limit, trying to balance his feet. I saw him kissing his friend’s neck twice while dancing. He had lost his conscious then. There were two flabby guys wearing low waist dancing heavily in the floor and seems might loose their jeans anytime An European wearing a specs with a geek look reading some book and having his drink in a corner. Then there was this dark tall guy who has all the qualification to walk in the ramp with a sexy smile and flashing teeth sitting alone drinking. He was looking at his mobile phone, trying to find someone in his contact list to talk to; he must be really bored and lonely then.
There were different types of men, all good-looking faces, grimed with ecstasy created by the mood and music. Men with bellies over 40’s, newly wed men with their tired face and body after prolonging sex with their wife, late 20’s and early 30’s with their executive faces trying to find their feet among the crowd and then several young studs with lot of sexual energy and sexy smile. They were all their. I was sitting in a corner table trying to find my type and figure out if their any gays. But is there any way to find gays in public places or pubs like this? This must be a million dollar question in the Gay community today.
Wherever I go it has become my lucky destiny that I find someone my type, someone who is interested in me, someone who will give me that wanting smile, but today I was so worn-out to put an extra effort to even take a second look. There were so many cute faces, perfect bodies and sweet smiles. But is there anyone who is going to come to my table and ask me for a dance?
Fortunately or unfortunately I had gay encounters in strange places like traveling in a train or dancing in discotheques or shopping in a mall. There were always someone who will come and talk to me, ask my contact number etc. Sometimes I even wondered if my looks are so gay and obvious. I know that I am not effeminate to give an obvious look and impression in public, but probably the way I look at them or my smile might lure them and give all the right signals, I really wondered.
Back to Bikes, the music was so loud and the mood was swinging from back to forth. I saw him and his bulge in his arms. The gym toned guy might have been a kannadiga or telugu in his late 20’s was wearing tight shirts, tight jeans, it was tight all over. He was with his friend and I caught him staring at me once in a while. And then there was this twink in his early 20’s must be a mallu with a curly hair, causal shirt and low waist jeans. The curly hair twink had beers over his limit, trying to balance his feet. I saw him kissing his friend’s neck twice while dancing. He had lost his conscious then. There were two flabby guys wearing low waist dancing heavily in the floor and seems might loose their jeans anytime An European wearing a specs with a geek look reading some book and having his drink in a corner. Then there was this dark tall guy who has all the qualification to walk in the ramp with a sexy smile and flashing teeth sitting alone drinking. He was looking at his mobile phone, trying to find someone in his contact list to talk to; he must be really bored and lonely then.
Several men, different faces, and so many styles somewhere in the middle I lost my count. Then came the number from Kaminey, my feet was moving I went straight to the dark guy’s table. He noticed me and gave me a warm smile. I asked him “Wanna dance dude?” He didn’t reply, just stood up and grabbed my arm. We danced, danced, danced till DJ tired of playing another music. I could smell the perfume the dark guy was wearing. His arms around my shoulders and then my hips, breathing down my neck I can feel the warmth of his body more closely. I was not alone then, I was among the crowd dancing with a sexy stud, and the beer gave me energy to dance more, sing loud. I still had no idea How to find a gay guy in a crowd.
Written by: Vikki
Monday, August 31, 2009
Chennai Pink An Event Extravagant.. truly extravagant.....
The hype about the event was all over and I personally experienced it when I had to take back to back calls. I was worried that I shouldn't be late like last time and I left home by 3:00 P.M. At times it is annoying to miss a bus and a train which eventually happened on the blessed day. I stay near Tambaram which is pretty remote from the City from my residence i had to take a bus to Velacheri and from there a train to Mylapore. While in the train I was observing the crowd and wondering "will that guy be in the event". I was brought back to senses by a call from Frank ( name changed to protect identity). Frank had already reached Citi Center and was bored as he was alone with hundreds of unknown faces around him. Isn't it true that even though we are not alone... WE ARE ACTUALLY ALONE. Alone among our family, alone among our relatives and alone among our colleagues. So I called Tanush( name changed to protect Identity), gave Frank's number and asked Tanush to find him as Tansuh was also waiting in Citi Center.
When I meet up with them I was even more clear as to what Chennai Dost targeted at, bringing the community together. When we reached I was surprised to see Uma a mutual friend of Teja and I there with another friend both of them Straight and have come to support us. There were also many new faces waiting for the event to start and some known ones like Annirudh(The Shakti Center), Ramki(SAATHI), Kalki(Sahodhari Foundation), Olga and Magdalene( Center for Counseling) who provided the center for the event. For the first time I met Rajesh and Meraj about whom I have heard a lot many a good things. I really admire those two for the support they have given for the group and the community.
Senthil was the host for the day and as soon as I reached we had to run through the whole agenda for the day.
We started with the first event the ice breaker "Hot seat" by 6:00 p.m. which was a fun session. Some of the lucky ones to be on seat were Olga,Srivath,Senthil,Sharanya,Frank,Tanush and Shyam.
Then Vikranth the Director of "Chennai Dost" and "Chennai Pink" addressed the crowd and answered their queries like "What is Chennai Dost", " Chennai Dost's Aim", "Whom does Chennai Dost Target at". Anyways to give a clear picture about Chennai Dost Chennai Dost is a non-profit LGBT welfare organization in Chennai to strengthen and unify the LGBT community.
Gnyani was the Guest of honor for the event and he addressed the crowd. He mentioned that the theater during the 70's itself staged a play called "ஏன் (Why)" which was about Homosexuality.
The Documentary "Rainbow" was screened at 6:30 p.m. Rainbow is a 22-minute bilingual documentary apropos to the first LGBT Pride Parade that took place in Chennai on 28th June 2009, It was produced and directed by Mohan Das Vadakara independent Documentarian. The documentary was clear and very expressive. I kept pausing in between to translate in English but after a point I realized that there was no need for me to translate it as the documentary was actually connecting to everyone.
We had a break at 7:00 p.m. and then by 7.20 p.m screened Shelter.The crowd were really happy about the movie as it spoke of family values, dependency,dreams,love and pain. The movie was about a guy who is forced to capitulate his dreams of art school and spends his life working and helping his compulsive and needy sister care for her son. Later falls in love and is forced to chose between his dreams and the needs of his family.
The event was a success we had more than 60 attendees which was a rally big number..
I personally would like to thank the core group for organizing it and the advisory board for supporting us..
Thank You
Are we ready to fall in love?
I was walking alone in the footpath of Elliotts’ beach (Besant nagar). Dark clouds were threatening everybody to go home. Breezes were even friendlier blowing from all directions. Crowd was cheerful, kids were all over the place, and they were all so beautiful. I was not sure if I am allowed to be there and qualified to walk infront of them. My jean was fading even more by their glares. Then I saw them. Two cute guys hands around each other’s hips with mischievious looks. Somehow I had a feeling that they might be a gay couple. I followed them.
Generally I have this habit of investigating things to make sure of my guesses. You can’t blame me for it, blame all those Jamesbond’s movies I have seen over the years. The two cute guys were playing against each other, one was even complaining about the other guy’s hairy chest. Suddenly one of the cute guys received a phone call and talking over the phone for a period of time. I can see the possessiveness and impatience in the eyes of the other one. It was love, the holy thing I have missed over the years. I was jumping in joy like Einstein for discovering their secret.
How can you choose a right partner?
Do we have to go with “my type” for love?
Why do we fall in love?
What is that we are looking for as gay?
The more and more we look for perfect bodies and cute faces; do we tend to ignore the real love?
I was watching ‘Shelter’ for the third time along with the crowd in the ChennaiDost movie screening. The boy in the movie had a girlfriend but after sleeping with a guy identifies himself as gay and fallen in love with the guy. Though the boy seems to be taken a right decision in the end to live with the guy, but is he taken the decision for the comfortability or he really loved him? I had no answer. The screening room was more silent than my brain.
Last night I received an anonymous message saying he wanted to be in a relationship with me. I was clueless. I had no idea whether the anonymous sender is a guy or a girl, my type or not my type, teenager or an uncle. And I am not used to ask for ‘a/s/l’, so I have called him. Finally the call ended up after the inquiry of my cock size. I have noted down in my Google calender to buy a measurement tape.
Do we really think buying a measurement tape will help us to fall in love with someone or find a relationsip. Recently one of the readers sent me a mail; he wanted me to help him find a partner. I have no idea if he is looking for a sex partner or a life partner. But is there any possibility that I can really help him find his partner when I am struggling to find one for myself. Even if I helped him, Will it last long?
I have already heard about some horror break-ups and love failures among my gay friends. Is there any real measurement, which we can do before getting into a relationship or falling in love with someone. Sooner there are going to be talks about legalizing Gay marriages. But are we ready for a relationship with a guy just like our mom and dad.
One of my friends used to date with 3 or 4 guys in a week. I guess he met all type of guys starting from twinks to bears. And he used to tell me he yet to find his dream boy. Though I knew most of his dating ended up in mating, I never criticized it. May be he is trying to measure his date for a relationship through sex.
My female friend jokes about homosexual guys having more sex than the hetrosexual guys in Chennai. I guess its true. Sex has become cheaper than love these days, which can be easily sold in the yahoo chat room market. But finding a love through Internet may not be possible for homosexuals. Here most of us ask for ‘stats’ even before asking for his name.
Are love and relationship social norms of heterosexuality but not for homosexuals?
Is there any relationship between love and sex?
Why are we always meeting someone in bed?
Why are we not used to hang out just like hetrosexual lovers?
The Internet environment might have influenced us to be only in a sex environment and erased the love out of our life.But if a safe and healthy environment had been provided, Are we ready to fall in love?
Written by; Vikki
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Event for the next Chennai Dost meet
The movie screening a success and we are planning to have a different event this week. So guys please suggest an event ASAP.
It can be a movie screening again or a pot luck or a karaoke night or a masquerade ball.. it can be anything that is safe, fun and colorful... :)
Regards
Gabriel
It can be a movie screening again or a pot luck or a karaoke night or a masquerade ball.. it can be anything that is safe, fun and colorful... :)
Regards
Gabriel
The Movie Screening at Chennai Center for Counseling
It was seven already and I was late for the Movie Screening, yes me being an active member it was preposterous and irresponsible of me to be late by one hour. I was worried that I was late and at the same moment relieved that I haven't actually missed a thing. To top it all I couldn't find the place and Teja had to fetch me and Senthil with a warm smile was there to welcome me.
As soon as I entered the center I was welcomed by a warm and benevolent Magdalene and rest of the happy cheerful crowd. We had to screen just one movie cause we were short of time and we screened "29th and Gay". Personally I connected to the movie for its intellectual values and I was worried looking at the crowd which contained a majority of youngsters but I was wronged. Remember the situation when you're glad that you're wrong...! I was in that situation. More than the movie I was engrossed with the crowd's reaction and I saw that they also connected.
In between the movie we had a tea break during which Magdalene gave a picture of what Center for counseling is; and from what I heard about her contribution to the LGBT community all I could is to relate to a context of that speech by Shakespeare mentioned in one of his famous play's King John which says
To guard a title that was rich before,
To gild refined gold, to paint the lily,
To throw a perfume on the violet,
To smooth the ice, or add another hue
Unto the rainbow, or with taper-light
To seek the beauteous eye of heaven to garnish,
Is wasteful and ridiculous excess.
The above means that her work communicates that the queer crowd are beautiful and perfect the way they are and that there is sans necessity for them to be altered or changed. Vikranth later talked about Chennai dost and the break turned into a short interactive session.
After the break we resumed watching the movie. The movie itself was a Mirror which communed the actual down to earth occurrences in a gay man's life but with a fantasy ending. It also taught a valuable lesson that "Life is to live and not to survive."
I was content that the screening was a success and wishing that the next coming event will be more interactive and productive.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Chennai Dost Magazine's promotional Movie Screening at Chennai Center for Counseling
Chennai Dost cordially invites all of you for The Magazine's promotional Movie Screening at Chennai Center for Counseling.
Date: 23rd August 2009, Sunday
Time: 6.00 P.M. to 9.00 P.M.
Venue: Chennai Center for Counseling
29th and Gay (2005)
Cast: James Vasquez, Nicole Marcks, Mike Doyle and David McBean
Synopsis: James (James Vasquez) is a guy approaching his thirty, who is fat, bald and single. While his best friend Roxy (Nicole Marcks) an actress-turned-activist, who struggles to show him that there's still life beyond All that Jazz, his other friend, Brandon (David McBean) who is comfortable in his own gay skin and the one who works on getting James to at least talk to a boy, James feels out of place in the world Men and is smothered between his Hispanic-American heritage and his sexuality.
The invitation is open to all for free, for more info contact Gabriel - 99623 06050 Teja - 91760 16919 (or) Srivath - 97109 03650 or chennaidostt@gmail.com
Date: 23rd August 2009, Sunday
Time: 6.00 P.M. to 9.00 P.M.
Venue: Chennai Center for Counseling
18 Radhakrishnan Salai Ninth Street (opp. Citi Center, Inox)
Third Floor Mylapore
Mylapore
Chennai-600004.
29th and Gay (2005)
Cast: James Vasquez, Nicole Marcks, Mike Doyle and David McBean
Synopsis: James (James Vasquez) is a guy approaching his thirty, who is fat, bald and single. While his best friend Roxy (Nicole Marcks) an actress-turned-activist, who struggles to show him that there's still life beyond All that Jazz, his other friend, Brandon (David McBean) who is comfortable in his own gay skin and the one who works on getting James to at least talk to a boy, James feels out of place in the world Men and is smothered between his Hispanic-American heritage and his sexuality.
The invitation is open to all for free, for more info contact Gabriel - 99623 06050 Teja - 91760 16919 (or) Srivath - 97109 03650 or chennaidostt@gmail.com
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
The Perfect Guy
Wouldn't we give anything to be with a perfect guy...?
But there's nothing to give TO BE A PERFECT GUY....!
The Perfect Guy Would....
1.. Know how to make you smile when you are down .
2.. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice.
3.. Stick up for you, but still respects your independence .
4.. Give you the remote control during the game .
5.. Come up behind you and put his arms
around you.
6.. Play with your hair.
7.. His hands always find yours ..
8. Be cute when he really wants something.
9.. Offer you plenty of massages.
10. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork.
11. Never run out of love.
12. Be funny, but know how to be serious.
13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious.
14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.
15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.
16. Smile a lot.
17. Plans a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally like to do, just because he knows it means a lot to you.
18. Appreciate you.
19. Help others out.
20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.
21. Always gives you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each others company, even when his friends are watching.
22. Sing, even if he can't.
23. Have a creative sense of humor.
24. Stare at you.
25. Call for no reason.
26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs - just because he loves u that much to quit it.
Imagine if every guy turned out to be perfect.....!
Even you....!
Think about it...
All you have to do.... is just be one......
Frequently Asked Questions - FAQ Part-3
What is the meaning of Gay Pride?
Vikki: Well, when you walk along with your friends in the Pride and look at all those by passers looking at you as if you are some kind of joke and then you feel like stepped onto the Cow-shit and managing not to let others know about it. That kind of thing. But actually Gay Pride means gays walk with pride not ashamed of the label given by the so-called social norms and heterosexuals.
What is Monogamous relationship? Does it exist in Gay community?
Vikki: Where are you exactly from, Planet Pluto? After Shri Ramachandra in ancient century no biological man with a cock believed in monogamous relationship in the history of the world till now, not even his successor Lord Krishna. So get real. But of course Monogamous relationship is one beautiful terminology existed only by word, which means two people in a relationship without having sex or relationship with the third person. Beware your boyfriend might be sleeping with your best friend. Especially in our Chennai community it is a big joke, but there are few exceptions. Guys who are fed up of this web-relationship now decided to stay Mono (single) forever. So stay random.
What is the meaning of Threesome?
Vikki: Letting a guy watch while the other two better-looking guys having hot sex. Come on guys, you don’t need an Oxford dictionary for this, threesome means three guys doing something which cannot be typed from my keyboard. May be my keyboard likes Group sex. By the way, aren’t you the same guy who asked about Monogamous relationship? Thats so Gross man…
Is there any terminology called bi-curious?
Vikki: Yes there is, bi-curious means someone who wants to experiment or curious about the alternative sex. After the court ruling on 377 I heard 77% of Indian straight men have become bi-curious. They have become so curious these days they don’t even mind being a bottom. Do you know there is a terminology called Straight curious, it means someone who is actually Gay but wanted to be Straight, they are the remaining 23% anyways. That’s pretty damn straight, huh?
I never been to any Gay parties till now, I wanted to go for one, its my dream
Vikki: Trust me, it is not like you heard. So what exactly happening in gay parties these days, we hug each other and then we start gossiping about him, we drink too much finally we look for a place to puke, nobody stripteases here, there is no gay bars or pubs here, there are very few gays who can dance here and the DJ plays music which can even turn a brand Nelly bottom into straight. And then you have to leave the place exactly at 12. It is a normal party where you can find gays and don’t expect any hot dudes here; they are all so happy sleeping at home hugging their teddy bears, so stop dreaming.
How can i protect myself from Swine Flu?
Vikki: At last there are some advantage of being gay. Most of the gays are so clean freak, so the possibility of infected by H1N1 is less. If you have enough immunity stop worrying about Swine Flu, if you think you don’t have start working on to increase your immunity power. Feel good factor for all cross dressers, please don’t discard your old bra (or the one you have stolen from your sister), cut the 2 cups and use as Swine Flu masks.
Is it mandatory to use a condom for anal intercourses?
Vikki: No, not at all. There are several other methodologies invented by our back bench intellectuals. You can use plastic bags, ballons etc...but if its torn anywhere in between no sweats please. Come on Guys condom is the only way of doing things for anal intercourses. Never ever say no to it, its safe to keep atleast one rubber in your wallet all the time. If you would like to know more about AIDS awareness and safe sex please contact Sahothara or fagatsanthome@gmail.com
send your queries to Vikki at chennaidostt@gmail.com it will be answered in the next FAQ section.
Note : FAQ Part- 1 at http://chennai-dost.blogspot.com/2009/05/faq-frequently-asked-questions.html
Vikki: Well, when you walk along with your friends in the Pride and look at all those by passers looking at you as if you are some kind of joke and then you feel like stepped onto the Cow-shit and managing not to let others know about it. That kind of thing. But actually Gay Pride means gays walk with pride not ashamed of the label given by the so-called social norms and heterosexuals.
What is Monogamous relationship? Does it exist in Gay community?
Vikki: Where are you exactly from, Planet Pluto? After Shri Ramachandra in ancient century no biological man with a cock believed in monogamous relationship in the history of the world till now, not even his successor Lord Krishna. So get real. But of course Monogamous relationship is one beautiful terminology existed only by word, which means two people in a relationship without having sex or relationship with the third person. Beware your boyfriend might be sleeping with your best friend. Especially in our Chennai community it is a big joke, but there are few exceptions. Guys who are fed up of this web-relationship now decided to stay Mono (single) forever. So stay random.
What is the meaning of Threesome?
Vikki: Letting a guy watch while the other two better-looking guys having hot sex. Come on guys, you don’t need an Oxford dictionary for this, threesome means three guys doing something which cannot be typed from my keyboard. May be my keyboard likes Group sex. By the way, aren’t you the same guy who asked about Monogamous relationship? Thats so Gross man…
Is there any terminology called bi-curious?
Vikki: Yes there is, bi-curious means someone who wants to experiment or curious about the alternative sex. After the court ruling on 377 I heard 77% of Indian straight men have become bi-curious. They have become so curious these days they don’t even mind being a bottom. Do you know there is a terminology called Straight curious, it means someone who is actually Gay but wanted to be Straight, they are the remaining 23% anyways. That’s pretty damn straight, huh?
I never been to any Gay parties till now, I wanted to go for one, its my dream
Vikki: Trust me, it is not like you heard. So what exactly happening in gay parties these days, we hug each other and then we start gossiping about him, we drink too much finally we look for a place to puke, nobody stripteases here, there is no gay bars or pubs here, there are very few gays who can dance here and the DJ plays music which can even turn a brand Nelly bottom into straight. And then you have to leave the place exactly at 12. It is a normal party where you can find gays and don’t expect any hot dudes here; they are all so happy sleeping at home hugging their teddy bears, so stop dreaming.
How can i protect myself from Swine Flu?
Vikki: At last there are some advantage of being gay. Most of the gays are so clean freak, so the possibility of infected by H1N1 is less. If you have enough immunity stop worrying about Swine Flu, if you think you don’t have start working on to increase your immunity power. Feel good factor for all cross dressers, please don’t discard your old bra (or the one you have stolen from your sister), cut the 2 cups and use as Swine Flu masks.
Is it mandatory to use a condom for anal intercourses?
Vikki: No, not at all. There are several other methodologies invented by our back bench intellectuals. You can use plastic bags, ballons etc...but if its torn anywhere in between no sweats please. Come on Guys condom is the only way of doing things for anal intercourses. Never ever say no to it, its safe to keep atleast one rubber in your wallet all the time. If you would like to know more about AIDS awareness and safe sex please contact Sahothara or fagatsanthome@gmail.com
send your queries to Vikki at chennaidostt@gmail.com it will be answered in the next FAQ section.
Note : FAQ Part- 1 at http://chennai-dost.blogspot.com/2009/05/faq-frequently-asked-questions.html
A salute to the flag
Well, It's been a while am in this team,though I have hardly contributed anything towards this blog,so I guess it's time that I change that. So when I was thinking about where to begin I felt why not begin with the most recognizable symbol in the world, the rainbow flag. Yeah, the flag which marks the presence in every parades and has been the symbol of pride and unity. Here, in my very first post I would like to write about the origin and how the flag came into existence.
Homosexuality and colours have always been blended together,before the rainbow flag came into existence,homosexuals from each country were using specific colour to express themselves.The pink coloured triangle became popular only in 1980's. Earlier it was purple that marked the parades in 1960's,which even gained the homosexual community the name "Purple Power". The pink colour came into action when the nazi community in germany used that colour to identify gay males, in england they used the colour green.From this one can sense that colours and homosexuality have a long relation.
As each group of people at various parts of world had different ways and colours to express themselves,so the gay activists in san fransisco insisted, that they frame a community symbol. It was the time that pink triangle has not gained it's popularity, so in accordance to their request the first rainbow flag was designed by a local artist,Gilbert baker in 1978. Gilbert baker was not only a local artist but was also the friend of the first gay mayor of san fransisco Harvey milk.
Initially the flag was made with eight colours,pink,red,orange,yellow,green,blue,indigo and violet. According to baker,each colour had their own meaning.As anyone can realize pink,red,orange,yellow and green represented, sexuality,life,healing,sun and nature. Blue indicated art,violet indicating spirit and indigo representing harmony.Thereby a story of life has been told through this colours. It was not long after his creation that the very first open gay mayor, harvey milk was assasinated in 1978. Homosexual community shocked at this brutal assault on one of the mayor who was openly gay decided to show their strength and solidarity, so the committee decided to use Baker's Flag.
At this point the flag had only seven colours, with pink being removed due to the lack of the dye colour. The committee decided to strip of indigo to make the colours even thereby giving rise to six coloured rainbow flag. This flag immediately grabbed the attention of people all around the world thus spreading the powerful aura of the pride with which the homosexuuals marched in 1978 at san fransisco. Later on following this incident, these colours were incorporated into striped versions, the one that modern world is using now.Thus the rainbow coloured flag represents though diversified by culture,language and ethnics we all stand under single community,for which we stand together.
Maybe most of you are aware about this, though I hope this might help someone who wants to know about the symbol with which we march.Would love to hear from you all regarding this.I will continue to post regarding the gay culture and history...
" Let the spirit stay alive,be gay and be proud"
Monday, August 17, 2009
INDEPENDENCE DAY
Written by: Siva
I was lazy on 15th Independence Day after I went for flag hoisting at my work place and was lazying about. What was indepenence all about. We are expected to work hard, make our country proud and remember our leaders who gave us the freedom etc. Why should we be given a holiday? to lazy around ?see movies(xxxx)?, have fun with friends,? watch the usual TVprogrammes? I was wondering.
Because it was a holiday I happened to gain some knowledge?(had I or had I not before is a question). I was listening to Radio Mirchi which broadcasted an interview with famous(Vijai TV) fame Rose.Her interview gave some insight of such transgenders who have been shunned by society and family and how Tamil Nadu is the only State to recognise them and give them their status in education and employment. She said that a transgender has been given admission to Teacher Training course as a transgender. It was.sad to hear the difficulties but glad that there seems to be a light somewhere for them in future.
Freedom is not exclusive to only so called "straight" "normal" people. On this independence day we have to ralise that freedom means same for all types of humans, be it straight ,gay or transgender..
I felt being transgender in this society is more tough than a gay. I wondered whether I, inspite of having sympathy on such transgenders will willingly employ any such transgenders under me? To be frank I might not! as I fear the society and what others will think and co-employees will refuse to work or tease the transgender.? If we are in such a state where we can say we are all free? Free for what ? to hate others? to redicule and hurt others feelings ? put them to shame for what they are not responsible?
Well this extends even to us gays
In the midst of all these insights(??) I got lazying around(benefits in being lazy-we get wise) I switched on to TV and happened to watch a programme on STAR-WORLD a super dancer show. It was different of its kind. About 8 countries participated (including India)and performers performed solo, duet and group dances from each country. All the dances wee great. The Judges were from all the competing countries. The Judge will not give point for a programe when his/her country performs. It was really great to see diffrent dances from different countries. Such style and elegance romance...
My mood got better and I went out for roaming
My Epic - Coming Out
Written by: LGayFriend
Part III: To live with pain!!!
My morning alarm slaughters me. I killed the alarm and checked out the calendar. It points: 08th August 2009 – 07:30 AM. Seven days has been completed since I moved to Shollinganallur. I am unable to believe myself how I survived this whole seven days without him. How did I survived? I would have become mad. Or I would have died. But I am not. Yes, I missed him more than my soul. On every morning I used to rewind my life three months back. Only that energy makes me to keep going these seven days. I believe this energy will hold me for ever.
What I am going to do today? All my roommates have gone to their natives. I would become mad if I stay here for a long time all alone. No, I would cry aloud sitting in a corner, thinking about him. I don’t have any idea how I am going to pass these whole two days. A good idea. Better go to a movie or shopping or beach or relatives home. Just don't be alone. "Just go out from here. Don’t be alone". I keep on repeating this. On and on. I started to think about the plan for these two days.
Usually I won't pray God. But today I did. God! Heaven shake the energy has to hold me to pass my days with out any hindrance.
Why this happed? I regret for the happed thing every day morning. Does this will happen to everyone or this is happening to me alone. Why for me???
I have only one choice. I have to live with this pain. He will not be with me anymore.
Who I am?
I reside near Shollinganallur. And I am pursuing my work in a famous MNC Company near by Shollinganallur. I am a guy with full of exploring and grapping the new technology idea as fast anyone could. But not exploring or very much invades into the Venus. I am totally shit on this. But guys after their graduation came with their dreams. I am different from them. A unique one. Hmmm. Not anymore. But I can say in this way: I am one among the hiding small group in this world. GAY.
Age: 24
Fair color.
Average hairy.
Height: 168.2
Weight: 64.5
Part II: Our Voyage Ends!!!
Date: 31st July 2009
I am so silent the whole day in the office. Rahul asked the reasons only while entering into office in bus, when no one was around. I said "Nothing". He is a person of reading minds. I mean he used to understand other minds. He never asked the question again to me. A nice guy. I entered into my workaholic world with a burden in my mind.
Time: 8:30 PM (Usual time)
Journey: From Office to Anna Nagar. (Usual journey)
Transport: Office Bus. (Usual bus)
I Seated: First Seat. (Usual place)
He Seated: Besides me (Usual place)
But I am going to say the unusual thing to him.
We both started from office. I boarded the bus with a hope that he will really understand me. Bus fired up sharply from the campus. I am silent unusually. Rahul frequently looks my face. He is waiting for me to speak out. The bus crossed Shollinganallur. I though I must. I said to Rahul with a deep ache in my heart with a low tone, "Rahul, I am going to move to Shollinganallur from Anna Nagar."
First he was in shock. But he smiled back and said, "Oh that’s great buddy. Then it will be convenient for you to work right." With a killing smile. I fell very guilty on that day. He hasn’t asked anything regarding the reason of my move. He assumed that it is because of my easy. A nice guy.
I know how he will experience for this departure. And he knows how I will feel the pain. But we haven't shared the pain. We just understood with a look in each eyes.
I said about the new room and the old roommate's suggestion to shift the room.
The plan of the room shift is because of my roommates. I quarrelled with them. But I am the only person denying the room shift. The majority wins.
That day 31st July 2009 was my last day with him, our voyage ends there.
I regret for the happed thing every day morning. Now, I have only one choice. I have to live with this pain. He will not be with me anymore.
Who is he?
He is a guy. His native is Chennai, MMDA. And he is a senior employee of the same Company. He is service oriented and helps everyone. His dressing sense will be too good. I can say about him in a single line. Like: He is totally hot. Or, an awesome guy. What else I can say.
Manly deeds.
Age: 29
Fair color.
Average hairy.
Height: 173.2
Weight: 75.6
Very dark curly hair.
Joined eyebrows.
Very spiky eyes.
Sharp nose.
Small upper lips.
Wide laugh.
Aligned Wight teethes.
Impressive chin and jaws.
Not more than this… He has a perfect manly body structure. He has not been made; instead, he has been designed.
Part I: An immense short life span
I am not affectionate of him only because of his physic. Actually he is a simple, cute, smart, move and manly guy. Yes, these aspects fascinated me towards him.
I couldn't believe that how do I get a friend like him. I have been waiting nearly 24 years to have such a friend. It happened just like that and ended in the same way. I really want to evoke all the happened things in that period. It was a very cheerful moments that will never get erased from my mind.
I have been moved to the office near to Shollinganallur. It is usual thing in my office. My old project got over and I have been allocated to new project. And I am new to the location.
My routine process:
Rise: 6:30 AM
Get Ready to office.
Start @ 7:10 AM from room.
Board the bus @ 7:20 AM at Anna Nagar Deppo.
Sit in First seat.
Read the story book (Angels and Demons), till i got sleep.
Wake up: When bus crosses Sathyabama University.
Step down into office by 9:15 AM.
Have breakfast all alone.
Will enter into my working environment.
Have lunch all alone.
Will enter into my working environment.
Have dinner all alone.
Will leave by 8:30 bus.
Reach my room by 10:30 PM
Have a bath
Read the story book, till i got sleep.
Once every one boarded into the bus, we used to sign in the Bus Entry Sheet Form. Since I am the first person I will start sitting in the sheet and pass on to the next sheet. Mostly by associates in the back sheets will be sleeping. I have to get up and move to the third sheet to pass the sheet. It will happen frequently. The person to whom i used to pass the sheet is Rahul. He will board the bus at MMDA. He used to watch me often, having question as why I am all alone. Firstly, I haven't cared at him. But the things changed in over night.
Date: 05 may 2009. He sat besides me in bus. But I haven't cared about it. As usually I started reading my story Book. Next day, the same thing happened.
Date 07 may 2009. He started talking me. He sounds very professional. He introduced himself and his expiries. He is working in another phase, handling a team. I introduce myself to him.
He is a type of open person. And this goes on, goes on. We both glued together so soon. I believe that his out spoken character makes me to bring together. I come across such feeling when I am along with him. I stopped reading book and forgot to sleep in bus. We talked, talked and talked. We planned to start back together from office in the same bus @ 8:30 PM. We used to meet and talk only in Bus. I started to wait for the moments with him. Days pass on and passed on. He used to hold my hands very tight and say "Bye Hari" with a cute smile, and then get down in his stop. I liked the mannerism.
We used to speak in many topics. Beyond what friends used to talk about.
· Projects Related doubts
· Work Pressure
· Politics inside the projects
· Appraisals Rating
· Promotions
· Models followed in the projects
· Many Project and Account levels topics
· Self Improvement
· Motivations
· Career Developments
· Suggestions / Solutions
· World Economy
· Schools / Colleges enjoyment/ Scores
· Interests and Hobbies
· Gym / Body Building
· Commenting on girls (Though I am not this type. I enjoyed as he enjoyed)
· Friends
· Friends problem
· Family Problems
· Marriage
· Movies
· Terminator - Arnold / Varananm Ayiram - Suriya
· Shreya (He is very crew on her)
· BF (A very dentally. He is expert in that)
· Cine Songs
· Dreams
· Books
· People characters
· Computers / Electronic Items
· Other Jobs
· Cars
Date: 21 July 2009 he was so depressed. I asked about it. He said his parents were searching for his life partner for the long time and showed him three photos. All were not looking good. So, he shouted at them. He said: "Hari, I am not asking for a high personality woman. I am searching for a normal personality with good characters. She should be young around 23. But my parents are showing me women around 26 and more. They do not understand my feelings. It is hurting me more and more. All were too stout. I lost the hope of marriage Hari. I have been so genuine and controlled myself for this." He just spilled out every thing to me from his mind. The day I felt pain in my heart. He was silent till he gets down.
Once I reached home, I message him: "Rahul, I am not made to get married... Guess you know why.. Probably it will be more bitter feeling than what you are experiencing now. I know you will be the right person to talk about this... But I think it will create bad look on me, if I tell you... Hope you won't tell anybody... Rahul, I am GAY... It sounds chilly... But... Guess you will understand me... Pls don't feel about me.. You are the only person to know about this... AND PLS DELETE THIS MESSAGE..."
Reply came from him immediately: "Ok gentleman. No worries... Will enjoy the present life.. Good Night... TC".
I slept that night with complete comfort. After unloading and sharing the long time locked big burden.
The next day, he looked very fresh and clear face. He chatted with me usual. I felt very happy. He was back again. He was never sad for his delayed marriage. He said "Hari, I want to be like this itself". I won his mind.
But the happiness only lasted for next ten days. The situation separated us after 31 July 2009. I am not taking the bus any more as I have shifted my room neat to office. I missed every moment that I have spent with him and mostly the way he used to say bye while getting down from bus.
Usually I won't pray God. But today I did. God! Heaven shake the energy has to hold me to pass my days with out any hindrance.
Why this happed? I regret for the happed thing every day morning. Does this will happen to everyone or this is happening to me alone. Why for me???
I have only one choice. I have to live with this pain. He will not be with me anymore.
I completed this epic on 08th August 2009 @ office, and it took nearly six hours to complete. Yes, I haven't gone for shopping or movie or beach. This epic is only for my Rahul. I fell so happy. The remembrance will not be taken away from me. It will be always with me and along with me and alone with me for ever and ever.
Written by: LGayFriend
Part III: To live with pain!!!
My morning alarm slaughters me. I killed the alarm and checked out the calendar. It points: 08th August 2009 – 07:30 AM. Seven days has been completed since I moved to Shollinganallur. I am unable to believe myself how I survived this whole seven days without him. How did I survived? I would have become mad. Or I would have died. But I am not. Yes, I missed him more than my soul. On every morning I used to rewind my life three months back. Only that energy makes me to keep going these seven days. I believe this energy will hold me for ever.
What I am going to do today? All my roommates have gone to their natives. I would become mad if I stay here for a long time all alone. No, I would cry aloud sitting in a corner, thinking about him. I don’t have any idea how I am going to pass these whole two days. A good idea. Better go to a movie or shopping or beach or relatives home. Just don't be alone. "Just go out from here. Don’t be alone". I keep on repeating this. On and on. I started to think about the plan for these two days.
Usually I won't pray God. But today I did. God! Heaven shake the energy has to hold me to pass my days with out any hindrance.
Why this happed? I regret for the happed thing every day morning. Does this will happen to everyone or this is happening to me alone. Why for me???
I have only one choice. I have to live with this pain. He will not be with me anymore.
Who I am?
I reside near Shollinganallur. And I am pursuing my work in a famous MNC Company near by Shollinganallur. I am a guy with full of exploring and grapping the new technology idea as fast anyone could. But not exploring or very much invades into the Venus. I am totally shit on this. But guys after their graduation came with their dreams. I am different from them. A unique one. Hmmm. Not anymore. But I can say in this way: I am one among the hiding small group in this world. GAY.
Age: 24
Fair color.
Average hairy.
Height: 168.2
Weight: 64.5
Part II: Our Voyage Ends!!!
Date: 31st July 2009
I am so silent the whole day in the office. Rahul asked the reasons only while entering into office in bus, when no one was around. I said "Nothing". He is a person of reading minds. I mean he used to understand other minds. He never asked the question again to me. A nice guy. I entered into my workaholic world with a burden in my mind.
Time: 8:30 PM (Usual time)
Journey: From Office to Anna Nagar. (Usual journey)
Transport: Office Bus. (Usual bus)
I Seated: First Seat. (Usual place)
He Seated: Besides me (Usual place)
But I am going to say the unusual thing to him.
We both started from office. I boarded the bus with a hope that he will really understand me. Bus fired up sharply from the campus. I am silent unusually. Rahul frequently looks my face. He is waiting for me to speak out. The bus crossed Shollinganallur. I though I must. I said to Rahul with a deep ache in my heart with a low tone, "Rahul, I am going to move to Shollinganallur from Anna Nagar."
First he was in shock. But he smiled back and said, "Oh that’s great buddy. Then it will be convenient for you to work right." With a killing smile. I fell very guilty on that day. He hasn’t asked anything regarding the reason of my move. He assumed that it is because of my easy. A nice guy.
I know how he will experience for this departure. And he knows how I will feel the pain. But we haven't shared the pain. We just understood with a look in each eyes.
I said about the new room and the old roommate's suggestion to shift the room.
The plan of the room shift is because of my roommates. I quarrelled with them. But I am the only person denying the room shift. The majority wins.
That day 31st July 2009 was my last day with him, our voyage ends there.
I regret for the happed thing every day morning. Now, I have only one choice. I have to live with this pain. He will not be with me anymore.
Who is he?
He is a guy. His native is Chennai, MMDA. And he is a senior employee of the same Company. He is service oriented and helps everyone. His dressing sense will be too good. I can say about him in a single line. Like: He is totally hot. Or, an awesome guy. What else I can say.
Manly deeds.
Age: 29
Fair color.
Average hairy.
Height: 173.2
Weight: 75.6
Very dark curly hair.
Joined eyebrows.
Very spiky eyes.
Sharp nose.
Small upper lips.
Wide laugh.
Aligned Wight teethes.
Impressive chin and jaws.
Not more than this… He has a perfect manly body structure. He has not been made; instead, he has been designed.
Part I: An immense short life span
I am not affectionate of him only because of his physic. Actually he is a simple, cute, smart, move and manly guy. Yes, these aspects fascinated me towards him.
I couldn't believe that how do I get a friend like him. I have been waiting nearly 24 years to have such a friend. It happened just like that and ended in the same way. I really want to evoke all the happened things in that period. It was a very cheerful moments that will never get erased from my mind.
I have been moved to the office near to Shollinganallur. It is usual thing in my office. My old project got over and I have been allocated to new project. And I am new to the location.
My routine process:
Rise: 6:30 AM
Get Ready to office.
Start @ 7:10 AM from room.
Board the bus @ 7:20 AM at Anna Nagar Deppo.
Sit in First seat.
Read the story book (Angels and Demons), till i got sleep.
Wake up: When bus crosses Sathyabama University.
Step down into office by 9:15 AM.
Have breakfast all alone.
Will enter into my working environment.
Have lunch all alone.
Will enter into my working environment.
Have dinner all alone.
Will leave by 8:30 bus.
Reach my room by 10:30 PM
Have a bath
Read the story book, till i got sleep.
Once every one boarded into the bus, we used to sign in the Bus Entry Sheet Form. Since I am the first person I will start sitting in the sheet and pass on to the next sheet. Mostly by associates in the back sheets will be sleeping. I have to get up and move to the third sheet to pass the sheet. It will happen frequently. The person to whom i used to pass the sheet is Rahul. He will board the bus at MMDA. He used to watch me often, having question as why I am all alone. Firstly, I haven't cared at him. But the things changed in over night.
Date: 05 may 2009. He sat besides me in bus. But I haven't cared about it. As usually I started reading my story Book. Next day, the same thing happened.
Date 07 may 2009. He started talking me. He sounds very professional. He introduced himself and his expiries. He is working in another phase, handling a team. I introduce myself to him.
He is a type of open person. And this goes on, goes on. We both glued together so soon. I believe that his out spoken character makes me to bring together. I come across such feeling when I am along with him. I stopped reading book and forgot to sleep in bus. We talked, talked and talked. We planned to start back together from office in the same bus @ 8:30 PM. We used to meet and talk only in Bus. I started to wait for the moments with him. Days pass on and passed on. He used to hold my hands very tight and say "Bye Hari" with a cute smile, and then get down in his stop. I liked the mannerism.
We used to speak in many topics. Beyond what friends used to talk about.
· Projects Related doubts
· Work Pressure
· Politics inside the projects
· Appraisals Rating
· Promotions
· Models followed in the projects
· Many Project and Account levels topics
· Self Improvement
· Motivations
· Career Developments
· Suggestions / Solutions
· World Economy
· Schools / Colleges enjoyment/ Scores
· Interests and Hobbies
· Gym / Body Building
· Commenting on girls (Though I am not this type. I enjoyed as he enjoyed)
· Friends
· Friends problem
· Family Problems
· Marriage
· Movies
· Terminator - Arnold / Varananm Ayiram - Suriya
· Shreya (He is very crew on her)
· BF (A very dentally. He is expert in that)
· Cine Songs
· Dreams
· Books
· People characters
· Computers / Electronic Items
· Other Jobs
· Cars
Date: 21 July 2009 he was so depressed. I asked about it. He said his parents were searching for his life partner for the long time and showed him three photos. All were not looking good. So, he shouted at them. He said: "Hari, I am not asking for a high personality woman. I am searching for a normal personality with good characters. She should be young around 23. But my parents are showing me women around 26 and more. They do not understand my feelings. It is hurting me more and more. All were too stout. I lost the hope of marriage Hari. I have been so genuine and controlled myself for this." He just spilled out every thing to me from his mind. The day I felt pain in my heart. He was silent till he gets down.
Once I reached home, I message him: "Rahul, I am not made to get married... Guess you know why.. Probably it will be more bitter feeling than what you are experiencing now. I know you will be the right person to talk about this... But I think it will create bad look on me, if I tell you... Hope you won't tell anybody... Rahul, I am GAY... It sounds chilly... But... Guess you will understand me... Pls don't feel about me.. You are the only person to know about this... AND PLS DELETE THIS MESSAGE..."
Reply came from him immediately: "Ok gentleman. No worries... Will enjoy the present life.. Good Night... TC".
I slept that night with complete comfort. After unloading and sharing the long time locked big burden.
The next day, he looked very fresh and clear face. He chatted with me usual. I felt very happy. He was back again. He was never sad for his delayed marriage. He said "Hari, I want to be like this itself". I won his mind.
But the happiness only lasted for next ten days. The situation separated us after 31 July 2009. I am not taking the bus any more as I have shifted my room neat to office. I missed every moment that I have spent with him and mostly the way he used to say bye while getting down from bus.
Usually I won't pray God. But today I did. God! Heaven shake the energy has to hold me to pass my days with out any hindrance.
Why this happed? I regret for the happed thing every day morning. Does this will happen to everyone or this is happening to me alone. Why for me???
I have only one choice. I have to live with this pain. He will not be with me anymore.
I completed this epic on 08th August 2009 @ office, and it took nearly six hours to complete. Yes, I haven't gone for shopping or movie or beach. This epic is only for my Rahul. I fell so happy. The remembrance will not be taken away from me. It will be always with me and along with me and alone with me for ever and ever.
Written by: LGayFriend
Thursday, August 13, 2009
L'Original
L'Original
Originality is what I crave,breathe,aspire.
yesterday I was conscious but not today
and will not be tomorrow.
Being me has made me feel me,
When I was young I walked in
someone else shoes.
They smothered me; my identity of who I am.
but now I have hatched myself to be me.
Committing my own mistakes, my own blunders,
has invigorated my being.
Even when monstrosity supervenes on my own
accord I will embrace it.
Because I am me....
Written by: Gabriel
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Unveiled: Sebastin's party
34, 23, 36….no that is not any girl’s size and I can never be straight to talk about it either. These are the runs scored by Sachin Tendulkar in the beginning of his test career. Though the runs he scored were less but the brilliance and master class was quite obvious. The beginning of new era was written all over the media then. It’s more or less the same in Sebastian’s party last night.The dazzling music reverberated like a wind in the motion, lights were crawling like a sunshine revolution and then the host Sebastian’s sexy moves and smiles made a great impression. Hotties who turned out for the party will sure have got the signs of a new party trend. Lead the way, which was written all over Sebastian’s warmth hosting. Even the shy ones started dancing for the beat. It was Mexican all around.
We need to have more parties like this in Chennai, not like once in a blue moon earlier. I was looking at the dancer floor and found the rainbow lights which later encircled my sight. My friends, no matter how many times you met them, they still shows that friendly gestures and carry infinite number of gossips to talk. Isn’t it what a gay party all about? Though there were very few twinks and new arrivals in the party, but who gives a shit about types and faces after few pegs of drink anyway. The party went on till 12 midnight and the music was fading in slow waves.
The thumpa thumpa goes on, it never ends...
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